Wednesday, July 11, 2007
i guess this is getting somehow really wierd.
i really dunno wad to do.
all i know is confusion.
awhile i feel im full of hope
awhile i feel im totally hopeless
im like going to be mad. no joke
i cant wait for saturday to come.
she promised me she gonna give me an answer on that day
and i have something special for her.
but the thing is, why must desmond suddenly back off and now left me alone.
i seriously dunno how.
she herself also dunno if we shall go on or postpone to other day
which i really already cannot wait.
but i also dun dare to get it to the day.
if she says no.
how am i going to face her?
the war is losing, my heart will hurt.
how long will it take to recover?
i am pretty sure its long.
i really cannot take it if she is going to say no
but i really have to take it
i only know now, this will be the very last time im going to ask her.
i know this is fated. if we are meant to be together
we will be..
i really dunno if i will get rejected.
somehow i feel im with hope becuz of her telling me that i have to believe
believe that the day she told me she starts to like me is not a comfort but a real thing?
i really dunno
and also she told me her friends are all supporting me to get her be my stead?
wierd huh?
really feel high in hope whenever i think of these.
but then its always people telling me that she is trying to play with me
except one of which is when she said she love me, wanna do this and that. she is thinking of someone and not me even though she is talking to me...
i really believe in her.
and i dunno wad to say
but if she does like me, why both of us cant continue when i asked her last time?
its kinda discouraging.
also, she keeps telling me about other guys chasing her as well.
and the people all said are like so much more talented than me =(
her ex boyfriend looks good, has fashion sense. got wadever she wants.
perfect man.. except thing is he is flirt =(
still got her cousin's friend. and a few more i hear and i feel. its really wierd. =(
ahh, no matter wad. i have to face this. its this world. =(
i just know i want to hold your hand till death
i wanna you let me hug.
i wanna have you to let me share my sorrows with.
i just know i need you.
right now there is really no one better than you
you are the sweetest girl in my heart right now.
you are the best of the best i have seen.
i just hope everything gets sorted out.
no matter wad your answer be, i will want face it as a fact.
i love you
