DestinY is WhaT YoU ShoulD BelievE in

2007-08-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

i really start to believe in fate more and more..
can u believe it?
i myself also really dunno
happy?
surprised?
sweet?
bitter?
the feeling is wierd.
but then i am really happy overall..
this week 'exam'
IS EXCEMPTED!
she passed me..
woo~~ woo~~
the date is 12 august 2007.
i will remember this date forever.
im happy really.
the 'exam' made me really so much stress sia.
and fear of that 'fail'
thank you. my dear.
我会好好的珍惜你. 我爱你.

2007-08-14T02:11:00.000+08:00

ahhh why like this sia.
it was so smooth one lo.
everything was so natural.
haiz.
now i feel so stressed up sia.
its like
she going to give me another chance 'retake' my 'exam' again.
then the result will be given..
-.-
haiz
whenever comes to this type of exam.
my stress lvl so high.
somemore this is my 'personality' exam
whenever see exam.
its just not natural lo.
i want to do my best.
but how to be myself sia
-.-
haiz.
then in exam, sure will want to find hint one mah...
everyone of her single actions will tell me whether my 'result' is positive or negative mah. -.-
like the last exam.
haiz, i tried doing my best.
but then still negative leh =x
cuz i just want to do my best.
and i still remember her pass is like 'just pass'?
its just not natural..
scary leh..
wasnt it okie one?
y end up like this ar?
i want score a distinction for this one sia.. not a C leh =x
sians lah, i know the result is most likely pass one mah.
since my 'coursework' is quite good rite? xD
but then, grrr.
haiz
my cooking test =x
going to cook pasta.
see test.
haiz, hopefully can make it...
want to cook with love.
is can one leh.
but cook with stress!
i very scared might turn out negatively wor =x
AHH! HELP HELP HELP! XD

somemore i scared got spoilers in between.
-.-
got 2 people coming along with the examiner leh.
how ar?
1 a guy 1 a girl
the guy i got so misunderstanding sia.
sure will affect my work leh =x
the girl -.-
on the other hand is the joker.
hahas =D
if jay is going together.
then will keep the girl shut =D
hahas.
but the guy =x
sians lah.
if the 2 people dun go.
then sure can make it bah?
then i wont be so stressed like last time.
but then better than the previous exam sia.
got so many around
1,2,3 PEOPLE AROUND SIA!
haiz
so scary.
got 1 extra -.-
doesnt make much difference also wor xD
haiz.
hope can discuss with the examiner for some help bah.
maybe call my friends come help me?
so i wont be so cham leh.

hehe.
good luck jia hao!

love you dear!~
dun be so strict to me on that day 'exam' hor XD

2007-08-11T19:03:00.000+08:00

getting better in my sickness xD
feel happy and good rite now.
no doubt i was really thinking too much le bah.
hmmmm. the mood is getting so much better.
except that my grandparents are really so irritating.
im sick yet they still call me do things.
why cant they buy food themselves sia.
still want force me to move out of the house when i am so tired to.
irritating leh =x
then also damn irritating.
1 fried kway teow must specially choose shop one meh.
wad that one too dry this one too wet.
lame lah!
then make me wait so long just to buy 1 packet of kway teow that is only freaking 2 dollars. =(
not say i not filial mah.
but there so smokey. imagine a sick person stand there so long.
body so shag yet need stand so long.
somemore so hard to breath in such a smokey place.
can die sia.
haiz..
hate this.
then my grandma more lo sou.
stop giving me suggestion please.
its just irritating.
so irritating.
me 18 yrs old not 3 yrs old.
stop telling me what to do what to eat.
i din ask for suggestion u keep saying when i dun feel like hearing those suggestions.
then end up u say i dun listen to her.
always like this one lo.
go home tired tired, then give so much suggestions and comments.
cannot let me alone keep quiet and rest one meh.
hahas.

the whole yesterday and today keep thinking.
wad type of girlfriend do i really want.
its just wierd thinking this.
but its worth a real thinking.
after seeing other people's relationship.
i feel hor
i hope i can have a girlfriend who is romantic sia.
always give me surprises while i give her surprises too.
its so nice and loving wor..
then she will always says she loves me like wad i usually do to her.
but then hor, i dunwan her to be so open sia.
as in being so close to her good friends.
aiya, basically its just like this mah.
if she treat her boyfriend more important than her other friends.
it will be good lo.
like go out dating, no other friends comes along.
only they 2 personal one.
if its me. friends vs girlfriend.
i sure still feel girlfriend more important lah..
then hor.
she must also be very devoted and caring lah
caring is very important sia.
thing about this ar.
like whenever i need her.
if she not caring, really sad sia. =(
how i wish she can spend more time with me than her friends lo.
then then!!
yes this one.
hahas
my girlfriend must not be too close to other guys lo.
seeing wei xiang like this.
they are close.
but then i feel its really still sensitive sia.
his friends anyhow touch her girl.
hold her hand can meh, girls dun mind but then guys are just sensitive lo.
its not nice please.
talk talk is okie okie mah.
but then touch touch.
please lah.
its just not nice.
then next is understanding..
must be understanding sia.
if not very hard leh.
like i say the chalet question.
if the girl does not understand that the guy is protecting her.
its very hard for the guy to feel secure lah.
orh i shall say.
if my girlfriend is going out with other guys, i must be there with her so at least i feel secure that i can protect her.
aiya.
easy to say.
like andrew and luan luan.
everyday so romantic so happy.
so close.
or i shall say i want a romantic relationship, a relationship that is serious and everlasting.
a relationship that makes me feel secure.
for at least i can feel her love.
feel the way i should feel.
get a real type of love.
everything can work out properly one.
a girl that always love.
not like awhile got feeling from her.
awhile no feel.
very cham one.
but then i only have 1 girl in mind..
love you lots and lots.
it will not fade.
really wont.
be my girlfriend

2007-08-11T03:17:00.000+08:00

ahhh! i really cannot take it anymore!
我真的很爱你..
你难道还不懂我要的是什么吗?
我想要的真的不多..
只是想有你牵我的手,关心我,明白我..
让我感觉到你真的爱我..
让我们彼此有了更深厚的信任感..
你真的已经成为我的生命里无法缺少..
我很爱很爱你..
我很难受..
真的很难受..
因为我真的很想和你在一起..
如过有一天, 你对我说你爱我,愿意做我的女友..
我会毫不犹豫的对你说..
谢谢你,我爱你..
请不要离开我好吗?

feeling better now.
just dunno why.
maybe im sick thats why im emo?
y out of the sudden im thinking so much man =x
sometimes i feel wierd.
love is so beautiful, yet it can be so hurtful.
it went off.
i felt good.
but now its just so bad =x
ahhh please dun let me think so much.
no high expectations again from now on.
really no more.
being single should be good bah.

grrr see im emo again =x
really emo..
hate this alot..
希望明天会更好.
我爱你.
im trueful to u.
thats the final thing i can say.
devoted, caring, protective, understandable..
have i not done wad you want?
all 4 i have done.
naggy is not wad i want.
but nagging shows how concerned i am.
i care about u.
might frighten you if you read it.
but its real feelings.

2007-08-11T00:48:00.000+08:00

well...
today from a happy boy becum a sick boy again = (
kinda sians..
feel emo again = (
wanted to go drink with kc and gang.
paiseh leh, wanted to drink to make myself feel better.
but my whole body really not right.
really going fever le..
well..
today went to eat at marina south.
wanted to give geng wei and wei xiang a birthday surprise.
but ended up not really a surprise bah.
they guess also know le..
bought a cake for them.
wanted to hide it but they all see before we go eat =x
but still enjoyable sia.
hahas.
i feel paiseh.
me, being the organiser of this event.
all do nth.
-.-
all is kelvin help me do it.
thx hor.
dun suan me too much xD
cuz quite irritating k?
well.
went to put the cake into the fridge in superbowl with sarah.
-.-
sarah. i treat u as a friend.
i wont tell wei xiang wad u said.
but it really hurt if i am wei xiang.
guys really dun like that..
and hor.. dun recommend me other girls lah please.
really dun like any1 else.
cuz u know one lah..
btw, sorry.. i forgot to burn u the s.h.e concert too.
-.-
only remember to burn for her lah u know u know.. ^^
will burn for u de ^^
then we eat eat eat.
kena suan alot too -.-
well eat eat eat.
the more i ate.
the more sick i feel =x
hahas eat le..
then me and wei xiang go collect the cake.
sang birthday song and took some pics.
with kelvin or weixiang now.
not sure who -.-
hmmm..
then see weixiang and sarah so loving.
good sia.
=(
how i wish it will be me.
but it just wont bah.
hurtful heart when thinking about it.
yu long also got 1 girlfriend sia.
=x
sad lehs all so loving.
only that jia wen and her boyfriend.
this is the 1st time i see jia wen.
she is darn open sia.
i wonder her boyfriend must be suffering alot lehs=x
but this is the power of love bah.
can see her boyfriend not very happy but have to bear with the pain like me =(
but they still quite loving bah.
can see =x
after then wanted to go my house market there drink.
but then really so sick.
paiseh lehs guys.
really bad mood suddenly.
also dunno why.
maybe sick makes me bad mood bah.
thx for u guys concern.
really good to have u guys as my brothers.
kelvin and gang.. pls dun smoke too much...
and kin chung at kin chung.
you dun learn leh.
its not cool lah. they call u smoke is joking nia.
u take it too seriously.
then while going back.
mood gone even worst.
dunno why suddenly miss her so much =x
whole body is so painful now =x
hope she understands me bah =(
i really love you.
o.. thx for wearing the gift i gave u ^^
i really feel happy at least that thing is not being dump in 1 side.
though u might wear it casually bah.
but still thx =D
next time we go make it smaller so fit ur finger ^^
love you always.

2007-08-10T00:41:00.000+08:00

wahahaa. just came back home from ndp =D
haahs.
went out with her to eat sakae.
then taught her some chemistry -.-
she brought 3 books.
feel so bad for her. like quite heavy.
dun say i din offer to help her k?
she is a strong strong girl who said its light one =D
hehe
then went rite straight to marina.
but abit too early then we went to raffles city to walk walk for her cousin's birthday present.
then we walked to river island see see.
omg, the shirts so nice. then the chain!
wahaha all so nice.
and guess wad?
its darn cheap leh.
i thought the pricing will be like GAP.
hehe.
next trip will go there liaos.
hahas
so nice so nice.
i like that bead chain lo!
haha.
then we walk walk to see handphone.
hahas
i realise something.
dun laugh k..
LIFE SHOP CLOSED DOWN!
wahahaha. funny sia.
i remember the days i studied RSB.
on life shop..
someone take the shop like its so good.
PRESTIGE SHOP! lmao
hahas
prestige retailer till close down.
funny lah
this shows that lecturer calling us to learn from a 'closing down' retailer.
paiseh for saying that.
sorry if its an insult.
but it makes me feel i am right.
at least i did a right decision for not trusting a lecturer who is calling us to learn a wrong thing =D
hahas.
i believe i still have a business mind.
for at least.
heee.
paiseh hor.
if i say wrong thing. but its according to my feeling.
which this thing at least proof i am not wrong.

remember i said this before.
a business lecturer doesnt mean that whatever he teach will make you a successful businessman.
its just better i learn from business people who are already successful bah =D
prooven and they are the one i really respect =D.
just feel wad i wrote in the past shouldnt be wrong.
cuz its simply can be argued.
remember my mcseafood concept.
dun laugh.
but i am still persistent that it will simply still work k?
why cant a fastfood restaurant be like jumbo selling seafood...
its still F&B.
i just feel as long a F&B restaurant or cafe sells good stuff.
everyone will go one lo.
even macdonalds is a fast food restaurant, wad is targetted is to tap their own customer base into other source.
i just dun feel i am wrong.
paiseh irene chan.
but i just feel i have done no wrong in my comments.
laugh as much as u guys want.
but i can just say its nth wrong saying those stuff.
to you is wierd.
but to me is good idea.
and if its a good idea.
it is always workable if hardwork is put in =D

back to wad happened today =D
then we went to watch ndp lo.
SUPER HOT SIA!
haiz
sweat alot =x
lucky got tissue lehs.
-.- =D
and they gave a fan.
the akira fan.
got light come out.
hahas.
then today watch.
i only like a few part nia -.-
the part where by they show their vehicles.
got that helicraft.
si bei chio sia!
make me feel like playing bf2 =D
another part is the part part where by the parachutist jump down from the helicopter.
jump down 2 times leh.
so nice.
i want try sia, but i fear of height -.-
last part is confirm fireworks lah!'
so nice sia.
hahas
but too much red one le -.-
should have mixed mah =D
ahahas
then then finish le go funan mac.
but too many people so end up go to raffles city.
then eugene come find me =D
but end up din eat anything and then have to ps him...
hehe
then we took a long time to find cab.
haiz
call le also no cab come pick.
so pek chek one lo.
but still got 1 lah =D
haha.
then send her home.
love you <3
^^ thats about today lo.
so happy still...

2007-08-08T09:44:00.000+08:00

the time now is 9.44am...
my grandma woke me up so early haiz
then lesson only 1 hour.
11 am.
so meaning still got around 1 hour -.-
so bored man!
recently got my new comp.
dunno is regret or not sia.
now i seem to have a shortage of cash =x
must learn to save up again.
the comp gives me alot of problem sia.
haiz.
the tv tuner they give sucks sia.
cannot watch tv run if i open more than 3 clients of co -.-
den stupid sia.
they gave me a burnt sound card.
then the sound card is like embedded on the mother board.
then need change whole motherboard.
so heavy call me carry there.
almost died.
i think i am thinking of picking up some new sports sia.
instead of going gym twice every week and i think i am really not motivated to do cardio liaos.
so tiring.
rather enjoy play some sports.
and guess the chosen sport should be tennis.
it is so fun lah.
at first me and my friends din know just swing lightly to play the game. then we use so much strength. now really better liao. can do the right type of swerving.
=D
last week saturday had chalet, my grandma so irritating.
go there so early.
then hor nth to do. sit sit there waste time.
thought upstairs can sleep.
then sharon's friends in 1 room.
jentson's friends in 1 room.
then no room for me = (
then at night then korkor come.
then we chat chat lo.
1 topic i was wondering is.
being an employee or employer is better?
many will say employer.
seriously its hard to answer sia.
employer need to worry alot sia.
rate of turnover, employee's salary, this and that.
employee then earn lesser -.-
sians lah.
i dunwan think all these.

now my grandma nagging again.
so irritating, everytime come my room.
only say this and that.
hate her suggestion sia.
buying a cake for wei xiang and friends she also want to 'suggest' this and that
she is getting more irritating than usual liao
haiz.
everynight come home after work. still have to hear her nag.
cannot let me rest = (
my aunt's birthday, i say want buy her wine.
she kao bei say i should buy perfume.
sians lah then money so much.
then buy le.
i want give her tonite when my newphew's 1st yr old birthday.
she say like this too shun bian
want give present must give directly to her house.
lame lo.
old people thinking.
really sians.
think so much for nth.
sekali is my family gene sia.
she always make me think alot too -.-
recently got a question bothering me.
if ur girlfriend loves going chalet.
and then the people around her is like those damn open one.
and many guys likes ur girlfriend too.
and a friend told u this.
his friend was staying overnight.
with many guys and girls in the same room.
then in between of the night,
there is a guy playing his penis on the girl's body when the girl is sleeping.
the girl dunno anything.
then the girl became a victim of kena molested without knowing it.
after hearing this, what will u do if ur girlfriend wants to go a chalet with a bunch of open guys.
with girls of course.
but u r not going there with her.
u want her to be happy.
u dunwan her to get harmed.
wad can u do?
dun let her go will make her upset.
let her go u will worry more.

a friend gave me an answer by telling her to call you if this things happened.
but dun u think everything will be too late then?

i seem to sound over protective.
but its really like wierd man.
these things happening may end up alot of problems sia.

i sound like a father -.-
well but i guess ill just do wad my friend said too.
if it happens to me.
let her go do what she likes.
as long i dun feel betrayed =D
simply life is like this.

2007-08-06T15:54:00.000+08:00

Busy blogging nowadays. too much to do =x

this song is dedicated for her--~~
u know who u r bah. dun need me write ur name hor xD

i know u dun like wang fei
but then this song is really nice.
and its really for u =D

i love you.

2007-08-03T09:52:00.000+08:00

wee~~
today ill be getting my new com.
so happy..
will be playing all the games i long to wait.
battlefield2142, battlefield2, winning eleven pc edition, dota all star!
wahahaha.
yay.
kenny! my shirt xD
hahas. later i go collect from u lahs.
will be wearing for tml's party leh.
mai siao siao.

exam coming soon, i feel the stress liao =x
need to study hard!
her N and prelims are coming in this 2 month also...
hope she can do well bah.
ill give my full moral support xD

then wont be going out with her much also le =x
going to study for next week CKT's lab -.-
i challenged my lecturer that ill do well sia.
hahas, he say i hopeless in oscilloscope =x
i just cant pick up with practical bah
but will study hard.

hmm, should i go badminton today?
=x
schedule abit tight -.-
aiya dun care liaos.

tml whole afternoon so free.
will chiong game whole day, then party at night.
then sunday study my maths -.-
havent take the paper.
wahahahs.

o ya.
next week going NDP.
=x
haahs. this is the 1st time i can go there watch live.
consider myself lucky?
my aunt simply loves me.
wahaha, thx to her xD
got 2 tickets.
hope she can go on that day as well.
maybe can cheer her up more
from those things happened.

please do this for me k?
http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/816163
i shall upload
the result on this blog in future. xD
question are abit hard i know.

http://dearanddar.blogspot.com/
and this blog.
please go read.
i want to puke when i read this sia.
the back ground =x
the guy.
waolaos.
he is bian tai ar?
=x
okie now study time.

sometimes i wonder.
If Love is About Giving In, Why Must There Be Conditions In Love?

2007-07-31T11:40:00.000+08:00

i dunno wads going on actually.
but after wad happened yesterday.
it looks like its bothering her and lq alot =x
hmmm, really dunno wads going on man =x
hope everything bad can get off in her mind.
desmond, i really hope you can say out k?
and we can clarify everything.
i dunwan to see her sad serious.
it makes me sad too =(

o well, went to see doctor for checkup
crap lehs =x
the stupid poly clinic doctor anyhow refer me to skin centre.
then ended up paying 22 dollars for nth =(
but then still go there and got some acne cream and wash.
hope my acne goes off
o well actually its getting better..

going school now to pass my thumbdrive to alvin.
then go buy contact lens.
then tuition tonite.

o ya!
wondering if any1 can go below my cost?
i can get thumbdrive at 18 dollars per thumbdrive.
and i need to get an even lower one.
cuz i have a customer rite now wanted to buy 1200 PIECES of thumbdrives!
and he is a serious buyer.
hope i can get below cost then the guy who gave the lowest cost will split profit with me k? ^^

love you alot dear.
dun think about those things le k?
stay happy and we will be happy forever.
desmond will be fine one.

2007-07-31T01:52:00.000+08:00

ahh not really in a good mood =(
really not sure wad is happening to desmond.
not sure wads going on.
but she said he is abit wierd today
then lq said about him too.
haiz, hopefully everything gets better.
dear, dun think too much k?
hope desmond can share with us his troubles.

today got my new desk.
a new desk = prepared for my new com le. yay.
my room now looks small sia.
but very comfortable.
i got space to write and play.
put 3 computers also no problem.
hahas.

exam is coming also.
gonna study hard.
4 more weeks.
i flung my D fund paper.
=x
din prepare.
1st paper i flung sia =s
yr 1 like this.
die liaos. =(
i will work harder! FIGHT!

tml going to see doctor for medical check up to see if i can get any cure other than surgery.
hope surgery is not the choice =(

today i just realise i kena cheated in buying contact lens.
maybe the uncle see me newbie call me buy seline for rinsing =x
now i realise there is another solution for rinsing sia xD
and its like 3 big bottles for 4 dollars nia.
then selina just for overnight soaking =D
hahas.
then can use 2-3 months for seline.

going to get a new set soon.
6 months only 70 dollars.
cheap rite?
XD somemore i got astigmatism one wahaha.

this sat.
haiz
going to cousin's chalet.
like nth to talk sia =(
haiz heck care liaos.
got phone + psp = ultimate boredom killer xD

then next week national day eve -.-
going to celebrate with my cousin's son's 1st yr old birthday =x
hmmm wad present shall i buy for him?
Elmo?
heard he loves red xD

then next sat.
wahaha BIG DAY!
surprises awaiting for quek and geng wei.
hahas. =D
see got me this buddy best liao.
brothers for life.
hahas. BBQ Steamboat.
wonder this time who will give us face sia.

confirm going one is me, geng wei, quek, kelvin, eugene.
then i not sure liao x=
but kelvin sure can get more sia.
^^

this week a series of test =(
tml got 2 test sia.
then now i dunno how.
tml not going school =x
eff com change to thursday.
then e maths how sia =x
haiz.

o ya!
sold 3 thumbdrives
wahaha my record. xD
and alvin said he wanna buy too.
he better do it xD.

2007-07-30T01:24:00.000+08:00

hehe. everyday good mood -.-
i shall not blog too long xD
watch concert yesterday.
very enjoyable!
especially they sing laopO~
dedicated for u dear~

hahs its darn nice man.
then we went to tm to eat pasta mania.
dinner at 10 pm -.-
hahas.
that cheezy bacon pasta thinggi.
NOT NICE!
hehe.
then played daytona.
saw kaiming.
he dance.
piangs so nice!
hahas. the daytona machine suck leh.
soooo lousy =x
then i bang on her 2 times.
wahahas evil? XD
lalala~
but sh won the game =x
hehe
then sent her home.
xD
really memorable.
dear i love u soooo soooo much XD
then went back home.
cuz last bus -.-
so bo bian take cab =x
hahas
took cab gone back end up cant go in room.
cuz my ah gong eating.
then have to secretly go back when he slept -.-

well thats about yesterday

today.
hahas
wake up at 10 xD
then sit down listen song.
i downloaded fergie's london bridge and put as my ring tone. xD
like when someone call me.
the song starts like.
oh shit. oh shit xD
imagine ur parents call u.
they will say oh shit xD
haas
then went out for tuition at 2 x=
and wanted to go gym.
but too tired to go =x
so i only went to find geng wei.
had some rojak and nasi lemak =x
chat quite alot.
wanted to buy lens but shop not open.
do u think 6 months 70 dollars for 6 pairs of lens with astigmatism is cheap?
i not sure leh =x
ahhas
nth much to post also liaos.
all my happiness now given to her xD

love u~ <3
sleeping time xD

2007-07-28T00:31:00.000+08:00

hehe xD
happy happy happy~
i bought a new desk for my room!
wee~
its so much bigger now xD
6 feet long seh xD
then got L shape wahaha
then can get a new comp soon
new comp + new desk
hahas.
my room will be so much nicer
the table is black
and its made exactly same colour as my wardrobe. =D
so nice
the legs of the table also chio.
silver in colour.
same as my bed frame's legs xD
wahah.
its so perfect xD

well 16 more hours to play!
wee~
hahas
damn damn qi dai lah.
going to see s.h.e.
quan shi jie tou zai chang zhong guo hua xD
hahas.
aiya
this one not the main thing xD
tml can see her xD
hahas
she said she will be going out with sh first to tampines mall to find that dunno wad jay which sh's likes( sounds like a crush -.-)
hope sh can have good times with him.
cuz i also dunno her well xD
she said she going arcade = (
i want to go xD
i want play daytona with her = (
ahahs
want to play play play.
aiya
hehe, dunno how also.
she will be joining me at 3 pm for the queue to the concert xD
hahas.
hope she wont feel bored man. cuz i can say queueing is the most boring thing =x
hope she really have patient like me waiting xD
waiting for u (s.h.e)
im waiting for u (s.h.e)
wahahahs!
im so tired =x
-.-
seriously i fall in love with sunglasses sia.
after my 1st one broke.
i feel my 2nd one is so much nicer leh xD
nafiz tried it and its damn cool hahas.

see this? cool huh? xD
hahas. i mean the sunglasses is cool =D

well.
hahas really happy today.
but something is irritating me alot man.
tel, sometimes i really wanna say something.
please be more irresponsible please.
when i lend you my psp.
i expect everything back.
i treat u as a brother so i am willing to give u.
but doesnt mean that u should lend the game to ur friends without my permission.
im okie with it but just return me when u r done using.
cuz i really dun play fifa and i play more of winning eleven.
hope you understand wad i mean k?
i kept quiet cuz i dunwan to have a quarrel with u.
but its kinda bustard to do these stuff.
very upset by wad u did and dissapointed.
how can i trust u again if u want me to lend u.
dun say i din give u time.
i gave u 2 weeks of notice to get the stuff back.
but u still failed.
well no matter wad.
please be responsible. cuz all of us are brothers.
we dun hope to ps each other.
all of us, wx, gw, u, ab, kc and me are brothers.
hope u understand.

hmmm. xD
hahas. not going to think of that...
let me try out fifa now and ill go sleep xD
more stuff to be updated tml.

love u alwaes... <3

thank you so much

2007-07-27T01:37:00.001+08:00

thanks to her for finding me this blog xD. its bright and makes me feel so happy.
sunshine mood xD
really appreciate for wad she did

hmmm. hahas!
dunno why.
feel so happy.
thinking about after going for the 'extreme makeover'
i really cannot imagine how ill be man.
hahas
i definitely go for a new sports.
probably tennis xD
and of course ill make every sunday a trip to sentosa.
wahaha. i want to train in gym lots harder now.
will want to make myself damn fit + tanned..
woot~~~
so happy.
then sekali more girls come to me xD
hahas better dun say.
i only have 1 girl in my heart.
and she is always the 1 =D
ahahs.
this sat gonna meet her with her friend.
-.-
going to see s.h.e concert! woot!
hahas
from zhong guo hua to xie xie ni de wen rou to etc etc.
then to boom boom boom.
hahas wad i like most is shuo ni ai wo~~
and also LAOPO~~
hahas xD
and she likes the london bridge is falling down. ~~
so qi dai man xD
intending to queue there at 10 am.
since so near xD
just take bus 24 then reach le wahaha
or shall i walk there? as morning exercisexD
hahas.
just so happy leh.
wee~~

today whole day.
went to school.
skipped lecture xD
then saw chang chang at bus stop
then we went to printing centre to do my delivery
suay suay~ xD
saw quek at the lift.
he was sending his girlfriend to classroom~~ soo sweet~ =x
hahass
then he called me to eat together loxD
and we discussed about going to marina bay again -.-
hmmm. i guess im going to open a bbq instead and invite all.
hopefully py will go also xD ahhas.
nth must to post sia.
since so good mood.
dun really want to talk about the fking lecturer mrs. jacqueline kwong
but well u r really an ass.
since young my lao bei told me 3 pin plug just put inside can le
dun even need solder.
u damn extra lahs.
grrr~~ -.-
dun say le

xD

hahas

im still waiting for u.
i love u

2007-07-25T01:22:00.000+08:00

yawn.
now only 1.23am and i am tired le =x
hahas.-.-
called her today and she was chatting with des -.-
and she merge the call together with the call confronts thinggi.

then funny lo.
she was thinking of something till she gone sleep -.-
so cute sia -.-

then hor. me and des were like.eh? where is she.
hahas.

then we thought she put down the phone le...

hahas. ended up she woke up again. =x
shouldnt have called her to wake her up.
i think she must be very tired?
for the stitching she said she doing for me.=x

i feel so touched that she did this wor =x
its like so long girls never girl me things xD

hahas. aiya.
ill be making something for her as well xD
hehe. wad izzit?
secret xD

<3 love u 4ever.
even though both of not prepared for a real relationship.
im really happy that we still can continue like this.
i love u lots lots lots.
ill change for u. promised.
i believe one day we will definitely becum more than that <3

I Love You My Dear

2007-07-24T01:21:00.000+08:00

wee~~
finally i feel the happiness i got back like wad it was.
seriously, last whole week i almost gone mad -.-
how i wish everyday is like this.
have her spending her time with me,
being more understanding.
see her laugh, see her smile.
it really makes me feel so good.

i have truely dissapointed her alot.
but i promise, even though i cant garenteed i wont make her sad.
but i will try my very best to make her happy and stay like wad we are right now..
i love you my dear.
and when you really am prepared for us to be together again.
i will definitely not think of anything and say a yes for you to be my girlfriend.~~
when you need me, i will definitely be there for you.

now im realy feeling so good xD
seeing you happy makes me really happy..
just very happy.

heee, really cant wait to see wads like you next.
i want you to be my princess.

always open~~

2007-07-22T22:41:00.000+08:00

hmmmm. i wonder who is ^^?
really thank you for your concern.
but my problems i dun think you know it.
its really very complicated and confusing.

its all about love...
i was shocked she called me in the afternoon to chat..
it hardly has this case after the 1st time we met out in marina.

today was a 'happy' day i suppose?
i seriously dunno why.
i felt much better than before.
after being able to shoot so many goals in winning eleven.
its been such a long time i gave these combos.

well whole day im doing nth..
really nth..
just chatting and playing winning eleven.
wanted to go jogging but ended up very tired.
my whole body is so tired now
no idea why.
is that a symtom of depression?
really hard to make myself happy.

haiz.
just now she suddenly ask me why is there chemistry.. (in love)
i also dunno how to answer.
but i tried giving the best answer out.
i also dunno lah =x

then she asked me wad type of girls i like?
i wanted to say the type similar to her?
but i really dunno how to say.
except that if she is more understanding, more willing to give in and of course if she spends time with me nicely.

i really dunno how to say.
but i seriously still love her.
love her + hurtful + miserable is wad i am now.
just please do not call me to give up.
thank you

2007-07-22T00:41:00.000+08:00

today... went out with her again...
and she brought a friend and her 'korkor' with her and her didi.
then went to buy tickets.
erm, let me think...
the show is invisible target.
then we go buy the tickets.
then go to arcade there.
all were playing
but i really no mood in playing =(
dunno why lah.
keep feeling sad.
the whole freaking day sia.
haiz.
then go arcade..
sl was playing that dunno machine.
that u get the hook to make the bear bear out.
1 game is 2 dollars sia.
dunno how many he play.
i was thinking how many people actually won that lo
2 dollars 1 plate of chicken rice.
then if he play 10 plate
20 dollars!
omg, can get a converse bear sia.
even nicer =x
hahas.
then her friend was playing the drumming thing...
quite good bah.
i dun play arcade much. thats why i dun really know.
but see her always get combo.
should be very very good bah.
then when go in...
just as i thought.
i really saw carol.
she is still so pretty -.-
her eye is always that nice sia.
big big eye with long long eye lash.
not i like her.
dun misunderstand.
but i really like her eye alot. -.-
imagine if my girlfriend got such a long eye lash.
and big eye. stare at it so attractive lo.
aiya
but i really no feeling for her...
then went to say hi to her..

then go back to arcade -.-
then saw a few guys playing the bball machine.
very funny sia
all anyhow throw.
then not much scores lo...

haiz.
then we went to kfc to eat.
i really dunno how to talk to her.
really dunwan to irritate her.
and dunwan to make myself think so much.
so i brought my psp along to play and divert my attention from thinking those sad stuff.
lucky she brought her friends along to keep her accompany.
if not she alone will make her feel so upset more.

then we watched movie, she sat with her friends in front while me, des, sl and didi sit together due to seat spliting.

haiz.
totally sad sia.
i seriously also dunno how to continue like this.
i hope she get wad i mean.
love is really something that cannot be force.
if she really dun like.
dun be forced to say yes.
cuz you can still continue to say no.
and if you r being forcefully to say yes.
together will be happy?
i really dun think so...
people kept asking you cuz they want to know if you really have feelings for them already?
and ask you cuz they feel you start to have feeling?
seriously there is no such a thing call friendship love.
really dun have, if it exist in a bgr, there will never be happiness either for each of the party.
if there is friendship love.
then it is only to friends.
guys doesnt want anything more than the feelings you give.
its just simple.
we want to hear you saying i love you.
we want you to understand.
bringing people out in a date so frequently is really an insult.
love is about giving in.
really giving in.
if you dun have feeling.
just say stop le.
or you can pei yang the feeling.
i really dunno how to say.
but i really want let you know.

if that day i really am okie with ur conditions, i believe i will end up to be like you with your ex.
i really love you alot thats why im saying that.
i do not want to hurt ourselves, neither do i want to hurt you.
just do not say okie when you think its 'forced'.
u have ur women rights wad.
u can say they are harassing you wad.
so why worry?
its all whether you want or not.
i just hope you understand.
no one wants this ending.

ahh!! very luan!!!!!!! HELP!!! =(
i just hope you can be the type of girlfriend i want..
who both of us really love each other.
really thats wad love is about.
love is not calling friends out when dating.
love is not just spending time with each other, but also the attention given to each other.
love is giving in.
all those movies stuff.
if i am him, i understood you dun like to watch and i simply just wont call u.
and instead ill just go to my other friends to watch with.
its really small matter.
i really dunno how to say.
but i really love you.
i dunwan to hurt myself.
i want you to be happy.
wad is the best thing to do?
divert myself from getting ur attention.
thats wad all will do.

i really dunno...
why must all these stuff comes together.
i really hope i can go back to the past.
where you always call me and we spend the night together.
i really hope i can be like normal.
give you all my love for you.
i hope we can really understand each other well.
but i dun understand.
why isnt there a strong trust between each of us?
i seriously never lie to you much.
only white lies of calling you to sleep.
haiz.
its really too dissapointing.

i will really not bother you much.
i really dunwan this.
and i really hope you are as understanding as before.
the day we know each other.
i really have enough of this.
and i promise you i will really not disturb you or 'force' you into love.
ill just be there when you are ready.
really...
no more asking you to do stuff you dun like.

haiz....
i really dunno how. seriously.
i love her so much and i dunno how to continue.
she asked me why am i so troubled.
i really dunno how to tell her.
i start to get embarassed to tell her i love her.
i start to have no more courage after that event.
my life looks dull all again like wad happened a few years ago.
i want to tell her i love her, i felt troubled cuz i dunno how to make her happy.
i dunno how to love her. i dunno how to get wad she wants.
how??
many is calling me to give her up.
and i tried.
i really tried to.
but everytime i am doing that.
i really miss her.
its really very upset.
and the idiotic problems come at the same time.
ahhhh!!!! really stressed!!
awhile she treats me coldly.
awhile she treats me so nice.
why is that so?
i really dunno man.
is that a friendship to her? or is that love?

i will try to keep myself happy.
for as long you are happy.
i will respect you in everything you do.
good luck in your life. i love you

2007-07-21T01:04:00.001+08:00

haiz.. so sians. after i really very disturbed by what happened recently man.
i really dunno wad to do sia.
uncle now approved and want to sponsor me to go to do the surgery.
but i really dunno why.
at first i wanted to do it, so i can get rid of those weight problems i got in the past.
then can go to NUM, Zara, Topshop, GAP etc. to get the clothes i like alot sia.
can wear so nice. can go beach without worrying this and that.
haiz but its a crap man.

like this i will be going to spend that stupid loads of money.
which is my laopo ben leh =(
haiz.
now i also dunno how.
but i dunwan think so much le.
i want have that body xD!!
hahas.

she tml or sunday going out with me.. =.=
hopefully everything goes much smoother than last week
really too down last week.
now just recover from down syndrom...

i really start to fall in love with shopping...
bought a sunglass, swimming trunk, suntanning lotion, and aloe vera gel.=x
and and towel!!
hahas guess wad?
i was actually thinking of going to suntan...
hahas, really very emo?
self concious le =x
hahas...
want to get myself darker xD
aiya now all plans push off le.
i going to enjoy life.
really must keep myself happy.
xD
maybe i shall go buy a watch, bag and a new wallet xD

2007-07-21T01:04:00.000+08:00

2007-07-20T18:30:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. recently someone asked me. wads life about?
i took a pretty long time to come out with this answer.
life is all about pursue for happiness.
we worked hard to get more money, then we will becum financially free and get wadever we need and want.
we worked hard to satisfy people around us, so we wont be pushed so hard again to make them happy. (im talking about studies. i hate it lah, totally not to my interest wad. but still have to study for the sake of showing them the diploma lo)
we work hard to get the best lifepartner to make ourselves stay happy.( yeah im talking about love. its really not easy to get a romantic relationship man.. really dunno how to make girls really know how to cherish me =x)
if got school got teach how to have a good life.. i sure will study hard sia.
sekali got PHd in Romance.
i really reading lots of articles how to make her like me more sia, and let her feel the 'importance' of me -.-
but its really hard sia.

1 main question to ask about love is.
wad is love?
in the 1st place do you understand wad is love?
seriously i dun.
my sis told me love is about of people giving in to each other to satisfy both needs.

this is what wiki wrotes
Love is a constellation of emotions and experiences related to a sense of strong affection or profound oneness.[1] The meaning of love varies relative to context. Romantic love is seen as an ineffable feeling of intense attraction shared in passionate or intimate attraction and intimate interpersonal and sexual relationships.[2] Though often linked to personal relations, love is often given a wider connection, a love of humanity, of nature, with life itself, or a oneness with the universe, a universal love or karma. Love can also be construed as Platonic love,[3] religious love,[4] familial love, and, more casually, great affection for anything considered strongly pleasurable, desirable, or preferred, to include activities and foods.[5][2] This diverse range of meanings in the singular word love is often contrasted with the plurality of Greek words for love, reflecting the concept's depth, versatility, and complexity.

hmmm too long dun understand wad wiki is writing. kinda chim =x
but i took a pretty long time to wonder...

her ex boyfriends treat her like a friend.
i was really thinking.
if her ex treat her with a 'friendship bgr'.
does the guys really love her?
of toying her?

i really dunno man.
cuz i really feel its wierd.
if a guy loves someone, definitely they will show all their concern on her mah.
give her love by holding her hand, hug her, kiss her, make her feel she is the luckiest girl in this world.
but why in the 1st place they are so okie with a 'simple love'?
really have no idea man =x

sometimes see people doing that when shopping. really dunno is jealous or envy.
but really hope i can be like them too.
everyday happy days.
spend the lifetime with her.
bring her to explore the world together.

now i also dunno wad to do. 1 day after another.
make her happy, protect her, take care of her.
thats wad is the best i can do to be concern about her
really dunno when she will becum my girlfriend that is the type of relationship i want.
hope god is nice to me and let me have a happy life with her.
ill will be there for you whenever you need me.
ill try my best to keep you happy as much as i can.
ill try my best to protect you from being bullied by others.
irregardless if you are mine or others.
ill still be there when you need me.
i love you.

2007-07-18T00:44:00.000+08:00

haiz. sometimes really dunno why this is it..
i really dunno how to say.
i dunwan to hear these stuff.
seriously everything takes time.
but i really dunno how long it will take. =(

but i really will wait.

lets start all over again.
from friends again.

i will show my most sincere side.
but its really up to her le.
cuz i really dunno how.
everlasting love needs to have both of us being understanding.
i hope she also can understand how i feel..
but i really appreciate that she at least is getting less cold to me.
hope we really can get this friend good and steady.
i will work hard on my body, my game chars, everything on me.
this coming 2 months holiday i will do alot to catch up le. XD

lets hope god is really good to me. cuz i really dunwan 1 after another 1.
very discouraging.
sometimes not having love is so good.
but whenever i see couples hugging and holding hands.
its so romantic =(
and i really hope i can be like them.
ahh. dun think so much le.
hope this coming body checkup declare that i am very fine and can get a cure with my problems.

oh yes. going like a friend doesnt mean i dun love her anymore. cuz well i really love you alot.
and its really alot.

i really dunno wad will happened to us.
but it seems like our interest seems to diverse abit.
but still, this is all fated.
i cannot control these.
its not i want also. really.
well. lets hope everything gets better.

got this song i wanna send u. very very nice... i will put it in ur friendster. hope you enjoy it. =D

by the way, someone said im EMO! =X god =(

wo zhi yao ni, wo ai ni

2007-07-16T23:31:00.001+08:00

hmmm. i really am the most stupid guy in this world.
she wants to accept me man! but why in the hell now then i catch it = (

im really slow. and i really din read properly.
why should this happened =x

dear im really very thankful that you accepted me as your boyfriend.
and the thing is i really misintepreted wad you have said.

basically wad you want is u want me to be ur boyfriend and at the same time and also want to be your best friend rite?

and you dunwan me to keep talking to you those mushy stuff..
i really din know.

im really sorry that i thought you said you want just to be friends but very forcefully you be my girlfriend you see.

im really happy to see that you accepted me. i was really saying wrong stuff and ended up i say being friends is better. for of course i really would want you to be my girlfriend cuz i really love you alot. its really fated that this things happened cuz im was really heaty after such a bad sleep and tiredness after coming home from gym u see.

i really appreciate that you have give in to accept me. i really did not expect you will accept me cuz wad happened on saturday was really confusing. i love you alot and now i know you do too.

it is really okie we continue like this. a very very close friend/ buddy + the fact that you r my girlfriend k?

of course we can joke around like usual cuz thats wad i want as well. the fun and jokes we had in the past.

remember the song liang san bo and juliet?

i really hope we can sing together again like wad we did in the past.
the chemistry between us.
it was really memorable my dear.
i will really never forget. even though we anyhow sing but its really funny XD
here is the lyrics =D

歌词:梁山伯与茱丽叶
作词：曹格　作曲：曹格　编曲：涂惠源　演唱：卓文萱/曹格

曹：我的心唱首歌给你听　歌词是如此的甜蜜
　　可是我害羞我没有勇气　对你说一句我爱你

卓：为什麼你还是不言不语　难道(是)你不懂我的心
　　不管你用什麼方式表明　我会对你说我愿意

曹：千言万语裡　只有一句话能　表白我的心
卓：千言万语裡　只有一句话就
合：能够让我们相偎相依

曹：我爱你　你是我的茱丽叶　卓：茱丽叶
　　我愿意变成你的粱山伯
合：幸福的每一天　浪漫的每一夜
卓：把爱　　曹：永远
卓　不放开　曹：I Love You
卓：我爱你　你是我的罗密欧　曹：罗密欧
卓：我愿意变成你的祝英台
合：幸福的每一天　浪漫的每一夜　美丽的爱情祝福著　未来

im really very sorry for with these misunderstanding. and i really dunno wad will happened to us in future. and i have really know wad you want.
and i really respect your decision.

and now i really dun mind the fact that you wants to bring ur friend along while we go out. cuz it makes you more comfortable. and im really comfortable with them too. really.

i was not comfortable at the beginning cuz i fear im not going to know you better and ur friends might not like me too.
but looking at the situation. it seems we are really having fun rite? but only thing is, they have to pay themselves for their food and stuff lah XD cuz i dun print money wad xD.

hmmmm. actually i dunno you will read or not.. but i got a feeling you will xD.
since you dunwan me to say to u. i just blog here and hope you see this post xD. you can act you din see, but i really love you alot + u r my best friend u know? cuz basically every secrets u also know =x

hope you really read this okie? xD hahas.

2007-07-15T03:04:00.000+08:00

hmmm. well should say its yesterday since its already 3 am saturday now.

i went out with her and a few friends.

when seen her i gave her a gift i promised to gave her last time.

damn sad lah, she tried to reject leh = (

why must she like this sia..

she promised me she will take then still tried to reject = (

that gift is actually a ring i bought for her when i got my 1st pay =x

then its inside a box of chocolate from chocs =x

actually wanted to melt the ring inside a chocolate one.

but the it takes more a few days to make it = (

thought can be immediate one. haiz.

but lucky lah, she at least got take it.

but sadly leh. the way she take like not appreciative =x

she takes the bag and swing around lo..

the chocolate inside =x keep swinging sure will break apart.

like swingin my heart sia and wants to break it =x

haiz.. = ( but i know she already have seen it before going home lah..

thats why its like.. she is doing it on purpose to tell me she don like the gift?

i also dunno lah. = (

well,

went to bugis to have seoul garden =x

spend lots of money on it...

today swipe cards like drinking water sia =x

haiz.

but then still dun feel heartach.

at least i know wad she's thinking already.

from my heart... i know the best answer le...

and also expected that outcome...

haiz...

we met around at 3.45 pm..

then waiting for desmond to turn up.

its my 1st time meeting desmond.

he is tall...

and pretty good looking...

i feel so stress when i talk to him sia..

cuz he is soo tall and so much better than me.

feeling emo again. = (

well, desmond is really quiet sia...

all the way she and lq has been suaning her. cannot stand laughing.

and he is like those quiet quiet dun dare say anything one lo.

and hor he keeps calling and smsing sia...

and eat alot alot of meat x=

very funny of him lah.. very nice guy i can say.

cuz he dun dye hair, no ear studs, no smoking.

a very innocent guy.. =D

after eating...

then we just shop shop shop.

but then shopping like just strolling, there is nothing to do lo.

and then want to talk to her. she avoid me sia!

haiz.. see this pattern is like confirm die already.

i dunno wad she thinking also lah..

but she also did talk to me..

like a normal friend i think. = (

why must like this lo.. haiz. seriously i feel so hopeless le lah.

haiz..

after the strolling, lq left to find her parents.

i was abit shocked sia..

she decided to pei me go watch movie..

i mean probably not pei me bah but desmond( her brother)

cuz everytime i ask her go watch movie, she just dunwan.

haiz..

wanted to watch in shaw bugis. but that aunty super guai lan sia..

says no ticket also no need give a dulan face rite?

haiz...

then ended up going to watch in suntec..

took a cab from bugis to suntec. cuz i know she dun like to squeeze a train with other people.

hee~~

then took a cab.

how i hope she can sit with me wor.

but then i have been pushed to sit in front =x

haiz = (

then we stop at raffles city.

then walk all the way to suntec city and got 4 tickets and watched harry potter and

the order of phoenix..

that show super sian man!

i din even watch the 2nd 3rd and 4th epi.

call me watched the 5th one i see le also confused = (

while waiting for the movie to start. super bored sia..

all keep quiet

like nth to say...

i dunno wad she thinking..

but she seems like want to avoid me?

i also dunno..

but talk awhile she just walk off..

if not she just see things and din listen to wad i say = (

haiz..

very dissapointed lah..

then walk walk walk..

ended up went to walk to starbucks for a rest..

then had mango fruit punch ice blend there =X

its abit sour. but refreshing.. =D

at there sit down and do nth.

then after awhile we just walk off..

when going off, she forgot to take the gift sia..

imagine in front of me putting that thing and forget..

shows another fact that she doesnt like it..

haiz. =(

but lucky desmond reminded her to take..

cuz really very sad sia. = (

that thing if really gone..

its like, my heart put there and throw into the rubbish.

sad lah =*(

then finish le desmond very funny.

cuz he uses prepaid card..

so no choice have to buy prepaid card..

actually i want go fountain there sit sit..

then we walk walk walk...

ended up walk to golden village since so many shops dun sell.

then golden village in marina square got the axs machine. so use the machine to top up for him =D

then walk back to eng wah and just nice the show starts..

again..

i hope i could sit with her sia..

but she pushes her bro to sit with me = (

its like i sit at the corner

me - her brother - her - desmond - others

i was like

haiz...

why must she do that..

but then i nicely asked her by smsing to her if she can change seat with her bro..

but she dunwan and called me change..

then i change with her brother...

the brother funny sia!

sleep until snore in the cinema =x

then i was like seeing her all the way in the cinema sia..

cuz i really dun understand harry potter at all.

and dun find it nice..

then dunno why..

the cinema is really cold sia..

my hands are like trembling..

and i dunno wad to do lo.. = (

too bad her brother is sleeping..

then i got no one to hold my hand to help me get back to the original body temp sia..

the cold is like those piercing coldness when u get sick leh = (

and i cant do anything lo = (

then i was thinking if i can call her to hug me and hold my hands...

since she said she will do that in the past...

but then she gave me an answer of her leg cramp, want to rest...

i feel very awkward sia. haiz = (

think about this, does holding her hands means she cant rest?

hugging her makes her more uncomfortable as well?

sad sia = (

its just like she is rejecting me lo..

i cant say much..

whenever i see her, she just gave a friendly smile = (

haiz. also cant do much le..

this is fated.

i really love her alot alot alot..

but wad else can i do?

nth much..

cuz i really dunno how..

ask me spend money on a girl is very hard..

but i can force myself to spend money on her without feeling heartach lo = (

haiz...

she promised me she gonna give me an answer de..

and now she gone sleep without giving me an answer..

haiz

i also dunwan ask her anymore..

i dunwan to force her..

cuz forcing is never happy

and i know she just have no feelings for me.

why must tell me she likes me last week..

makes me so high hope, makes me so happy..

at first i dun believe but why must tell me she will accept me

then now like this happened = (

god u suck man..

seriously why must u write such a WONDERFUL story line for me..

why must i have such a 'good' fate..

so good i have to worry about money when i dun have money problem..

so good that i get rejected so many times.

so good to let me get my heart breaks.

in the 1st place why must everyone pray of u when u r the one giving people good and bad life..

we just simply do anything wad.
= (

haiz...

i really dunno sia..

why must i love her?

why she treats me like a friend when she said to me in the past this and that...

all the shattered hopes really form a deep scar in my heart..

really painful.

and i am pretty sure this scar is very hard to get healed like last time.. = (

well..

i really dunno man.. = (

love is really the suckiest thing in this world..

if we can not think of love like the monks..

its really wonderful..

the world will be so peaceful..

everyone will not see people this and that..

haiz...

i really must not think of it le..

i really dunno wad will happen in the future le..

but i know wad i have hear is all words.

really no emotions in it = (

even though i hope my jiejie is wrong, but still again she got the answer right = (

i really dunno lah haiz...

but i can feel she really has no feelings for me = (

really discouraging..

haiz.

just hope everything gets better.

but i really have a word i hope i can say.

that is if she doesnt like any1.. best is do not say anything about love the guy or like the guy or wad to do any stuff.

cuz no one cannot take it like a joke..

haiz.

2007-07-14T02:48:00.000+08:00

Odds
Accept 1:1.30
Reject 1:1.32

grrr.

i really dunno which to buy on. i have put all my heart and effort on accept i think.
hopefully rejection is lesser.

well win or lose its all fated. i just support accept.

jia hao jia hao. may the force be with YOU! and also dun think so much PLEASE!

2007-07-11T02:01:00.001+08:00

i guess this is getting somehow really wierd.
i really dunno wad to do.
all i know is confusion.
awhile i feel im full of hope
awhile i feel im totally hopeless
im like going to be mad. no joke

i cant wait for saturday to come.
she promised me she gonna give me an answer on that day
and i have something special for her.
but the thing is, why must desmond suddenly back off and now left me alone.
i seriously dunno how.
she herself also dunno if we shall go on or postpone to other day
which i really already cannot wait.
but i also dun dare to get it to the day.
if she says no.
how am i going to face her?
the war is losing, my heart will hurt.
how long will it take to recover?
i am pretty sure its long.

i really cannot take it if she is going to say no
but i really have to take it
i only know now, this will be the very last time im going to ask her.
i know this is fated. if we are meant to be together
we will be..

i really dunno if i will get rejected.
somehow i feel im with hope becuz of her telling me that i have to believe
believe that the day she told me she starts to like me is not a comfort but a real thing?
i really dunno
and also she told me her friends are all supporting me to get her be my stead?
wierd huh?
really feel high in hope whenever i think of these.

but then its always people telling me that she is trying to play with me
except one of which is when she said she love me, wanna do this and that. she is thinking of someone and not me even though she is talking to me...
i really believe in her.
and i dunno wad to say
but if she does like me, why both of us cant continue when i asked her last time?
its kinda discouraging.
also, she keeps telling me about other guys chasing her as well.
and the people all said are like so much more talented than me =(
her ex boyfriend looks good, has fashion sense. got wadever she wants.
perfect man.. except thing is he is flirt =(
still got her cousin's friend. and a few more i hear and i feel. its really wierd. =(

ahh, no matter wad. i have to face this. its this world. =(
i just know i want to hold your hand till death
i wanna you let me hug.
i wanna have you to let me share my sorrows with.
i just know i need you.
right now there is really no one better than you
you are the sweetest girl in my heart right now.
you are the best of the best i have seen.

i just hope everything gets sorted out.
no matter wad your answer be, i will want face it as a fact.
i love you

2007-07-09T21:45:00.000+08:00

i am confused! tell me wad i should do pls pls!

grr, its going to be 3 months!
really 3 months soon u know?
i really dunno wad to do to give my final shot to ask her to be my girlfriend. even i tried.

i still remember the 1st time i know you.
the day you called me.
i find it kinda ridiculous that you called me just to say wad you want.
but its really interesting in the way u expressed.
i see there is a chemistry behind.
somehow i dunno why. is is becuz i really love u?
its always the same case.
is that a fact that all girls are always like that?
they treat u good, making u start to fall in love with her?
but actually thats the fact how girls treat to guys?
its like too close already bah...
i remember last time...
all the ways till now.
there has never been 1 successful one...
why huh?
its just so irritating lahs. =(
izzit when you love a girl, you love her so much that you are willing to do anything you like?
izzit when you love a girl, you will really stop thinking how she look and never see the girls other than her?
seriously its a big doubt. i tried my very best seriously. and i dunno wad will go on it its like this?
love is something that is like a war man. a game of win or lose.
it kills ur heart it you lose and it makes you have the luxury of spending time with her if you win.
seriously i dunno why im always in the losing battle.
and it is so hurtful.
heart is so painful all the time man. =(
i really hope that girls out there can really remain a distance if she takes a guy only as a friend and dun give the guy high hope.
cuz it really dissapoint more. really much more than anything.
i really dunno wad im thinking now grrr.
confusion around my brain now!
its just getting so irritating
studies, work, loves, everything!
why must human always face stress?
why do we have to source for a life?
why r we always being tempted to have these luxuries?
why must we always like someone?
why cant god just give us a dull relationship?
why must there by god in the 1st place?
why are we always controlled?
i seriously doubt my life..
i dunno how it will be.
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and no joke! i really love her.
i seriously dunno she is trying to comfort me or wad?
i also dunno how to present my 'secret weapon' to her
its just so irritating.
why its always the last step that im stucked!
why in the hell do i have to face this sia!
haiz
i dunno i am happy or moody rite now. awhile i am happy awhile im moody
it swings faster than anything.
grrr
i seriously dunno if i can make it
will she accept me
will she says no to me?
will we still be friends even after she rejects me?
will we no longer talk to each other again?
its just going to be mad!
i really wanted to give up.
but here finally she gave me high hopes by telling me she starts to have feeling
WHY!?
i really dunno how to continue man.
will it be embarassing?
she s gonna bring her friend man
how in the hell am i going to get her to the corner to talk alone when her friend always stick with her and am not willing to be alone with another guy friend.
this is just like GRRRR??
wad shall i do the next step?
i took alot of time to think wad i shall do to win the war.
but but! really blank!

haiz, life is full of stress. and its not wad we want.

i love you
i want you
i need you
please accept me

2007-07-01T04:21:00.000+08:00

I seriously do not understand why.
Why is love like this?
Why is it always so much trouble to go through in love?
Why the hell do we have to love someone even though we tried avoiding?
Why are we so tempted in a relationship?

This world sucks man, seriously I hate the fact why do I have such a bad fate?
From the start I know u, why am I made to like u so much?
Why am I made to think that you are the girl who is to be with me for so long, and why in the hell did you want to make her let me like her so much.
When u seriously dun like me anymore, pls! Stop saying so much stuff to me. I really dunno wad to do.
AHHHH!! IM GOING MAD!
There is no longer any1 who I can share my words with.
I miss the days when I am still in RMT, the days I can share my thoughts and stuff to poh teck. Damn irritating, its not that I dunwan to study. I just cant find the key to unlock myself.
Now im in another fucking course ETCM, why in the hell do I have to know these irritating lecturers. I seriously hate u. its not the fucking fact I dunno how to do my stuff k? I am a really busy person who has to work and study. I know I cant juggle so much but I need money! My grandma’s birthday is coming and so wad? I need to buy her stuff k?
And here comes the girl I like so much. I seriously love you a lot. Dear, all along I dunno why this is happening. We merely know each other for 2 months and this is wad its happening?
I really dunno wads its between us. You said you love me, you said you wants me to take care of you. You said if no one is with me, you will be by my side for the rest of my life. But why? U r here by my side to hurt me? Why in the 1st place do I have to know u? why is god so cruel? Why in the hell did u call me at that moment? Why does god make me such a person?
Why am I a failure when I really work so hard. People say I have 50 yrs more of life to spend but why in the hell do I seem to have only 5 more yrs?
I know I am no longer as healthy as usual, but why in this fucking world does god wants me to pay so much for health and stuff?
I dunwan to be poor neither do I want to be so unhealthy. U fucking gave me a lousy lung and liver, and that’s why I am now in this situation. But for fuck sake, why the hell does it have to lead me into being fat and stuff. I tried to control the diet intake and stuff. But why in this world do I have to work harder?
Why I am I born like this? Why I am not given a life of wad the rich asses have? Why cant I be born handsome and smart at the same time? Why do I have such a lousy family? Why do they make me so stress? I hate this world I hate this world. Its never nice to say that much. I love you so much too but what is it with now between you and me? Why do you take how I am? I know im fat, pls stop saying that im not or try to console me. I HATE CONSOLATION PLS! U just make me feel so sick and let me feel that you are my guardian angel. I dunwan to have any guardian angel anymore! I rathered be a monk or wadever shit that is. And I seriously now is hating love so much. 18 yrs of life, 18 yrs of suffer. I hate my father, I hate my mother. I hate god for taking my mother away and give me such an arrogant fucking father. I hate him. I have this world! Seriously there is no where I can vent my anger now except here. I dunno how to say but It sucks when I get nothing to do.
I love you a lot but I really dunno wad I am to u now. I dunwan to hurt my life again.
Dun make me feel so good and spend you night with me please. If you dun love me at all. Please dun say all those stuff that you love me or wadever that is. I am really sick now. I really see no point now. really! No point. If u r happy, ill be happy. Meaning if you are happy to be with yourself. I will not disturb u. there is no need for us to talk anymore. The more we talk, the more we have nothing to say. And now Im just going to stop everything.

2006-09-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

hehe, such a long long time i have not blog. =X
just have lots of stuff to talk about what happened recently to me.
first, i took my supp paper 2 days ago. i guessed its a sure fail one as i am really not prepared. =(
so sad man. i think i really have no more interest in the course. =(
its so bored studying this course, the friends, the modules, the teacher, everything!
its not the slacking course i expected =X ( no slacking course at all in the world of studies.)
hence what i can say is I HATE SCHOOL AND STUDY!!
2nd thing is about my work in coffee club. after today =( purwa aka beep will be going off soon =*( its sooo sad the fact he is going back to bali.
seeing him crying yesterday makes me feel so sad as well.
it also makes me feel LOVE is something that sucks when it is shot to a wrong person. =(
beep told me he never cry for so many years, but becuz he is going to leave surya. =(
i really hope one day he will forget about surya and i believe its possible since i have forgotten many fucking bitch whom i liked =X
another guy who is leaving is my ar ka liao buddy cum supervisor(DARREN THIAN)
darren i know why you are being transferred and i think u should know too.
its really sad becuz i only work 1 month and u are gone =(
dun worry, i will visit you there one day. definitely. hope you will be just as happy as you should be here. and jia you~!!

okie now finish those stuff i wanna say, hehe gonna blog something happened to me today...
might be abit boring XD
went out to play lan with weixiang,gengwei,kinchung, weixiang's friend,teck kai, wen jie, shaohao (the bust) and i think jackson. this is the first time playing lan with so many people sia. from 3 people to 6 to 10( actually more but we din play together) hehe, as usual, i am late again.
went there with a blur blur look. hehe, started with de_dust. damn irritating, i super blur at that time, use counter first. very steady. kill a few. then quek call me go over to terrorist. shaohao say dunwan, say me wont help any in the team. knn, u more noob then me lo. dun hao lian and say i noob pls. but indeed i really super noob sia. least kills for the first map. dunno why so lousy haha. then they change to de dust 2. even worst!! LOL!
cant even kill any. dunno why. my aiming really suck to the core. then shao hao come kan me call me go back to counter say i noob. WTF, i diam diam cant do anything cuz outside. but super irritating sia. me become very demoralise suddenly. keep dying like hell, for the first 1 hour i think my cs skill super duper lousy, never played to lousy like this. (maybe quek and gang too pro for me also lah) so this is what happened to me. after then damn sian, but i think skill getting better when quek change map again to italy. hehe, its good!! that is the time i start to score. at least not the worst player still. hahaha, still can get to the 2nd last. but slowly getting better and better, still got double and triple kills in 1 game. not bad le, then shao hao start to diam diam. but when quek change again AWP. as all know one, my sniper aiming skill is damn lousy one. so confirm very bad lah. die 30 times kill only 2. noob rite? =( at that time he come kan me again. idiot lah. feel like bashing him off.
till the last map, i dunno why. maybe i tu lan already, chiong all the way. wahhahaa. see him killing. keep camping all around. NOOB! haha, me all the way 2nd in position. woot! haha, keep trashing. very very happy killing. oh ya!! haha cuz i am using my favourite weapon(dunno what name though but super good to use, everytime shoot the bottom sure headshot. and damn fast, even better than AK and carbine.) and becuz all the while they call me in terrorist no way to buy the weapon. then play de pool damn shoik! haha all the way keep using that one. kill kill kill. jackson damn power lah. i really cant catch up with him to become the top. =X
i think some people really damn pro lo. last time play with quek think he a super pro guy. he bring his friends along all damn pro. that day play with yong sheng also, within 30 mins kill like hell.
k lah also nth much to type. i hope my future will be better.
may the god let me be rich and have the force with me =D

2006-09-18T21:51:00.000+08:00

the time now is 9.30pm singapore time. hehe, bored i would say.
just came home after playing lan and pool in katong shopping centre =D
hehe, oh ya, regarding CPKviperpheonix's and kuri's question on what PCT refers to, it means percent.
haha, i guess the two of you doesnt play any MMORPG much, cuz MMORPG will say PCT as percentage XD
hmmm really dunno what to write about.
today went out with wx and gw.
was told may finally has a boyfriend now =(
am i sad? i am not very sure actually. do i still like her as wht i do in the past? i guess not.
but sad that wx told me that her boyfriends doesnt look as good as me XD
but taller than me =(
just feel so sad the fact she just like tall guys. haha, i am writing this cuz i think i am handsome. i dun think that
but that was what wx told me ( u look better than that guy )
haha.
today also had a very shocking news. i can never imagine, the CEO of munchies doughnut is actually kin cheung's father
OMG! haha, the CEO staying in HDB. funny huh
anyway today there are a few birthday boys and girls. =D
haha so i gonna say happy birthday! ( to shelly my love, kin cheung, and of course my best friend FAVIEN! XD)
favien i am very sorry that i din see remember ur birthday today cuz i am having a holiday. hehe. =3

k now i know what to write for a topic =D
does anyone plays any MMORPG?
haha, my favourite game is ConquerOnline in the US server. this game may not be that nice but it is the friends that is nice to me.
haha i just enjoy playing becuz everyone rocks.
hehe i am in the crystal server anyway hope u guys play.

the 2nd thing i am thinking of is friendster. anyone using friendster?
pls add me in angjiahao@gmail.com. ty so much.

2 Weeks in Coffee Club

2006-09-18T04:29:00.000+08:00

okie now, frankly speaking i still prefer blogspot as my choice.
since i am not really welcome for using nutang when i found my way to gain the fastest money, i shall continue blogging in blogspot.
i tried to apologise and seems that guy still hate me for discriminating. =(
well i think its enough.
me will continue blogging here, but still, i will have a copy of my post in nutang.
okie now the time now is 4am singapore time =d and yet i am not sleeping yet XD
just came back from work 2 hours ago.
(since i still can earn money when people with a real way of blogging. why not =D)
i may be infamous over there already but i still can earn money.
thx for not banning me doing that.
k now, hehe.
today is officially the 3rd week of my work in coffee club.
i can say coffee club is FANTASTIC =d
its is really a place where i enjoy working.
stress lvl there = 5 pct
energy consuming lvl there = 85 pct
hehe as compared to studying
stress lvl in studying = 99 pct
energy consuming lvl = 75 pct

frankly speaking, i really enjoy working more than studying.
studying really sucks.
hehe
working may not be good, but being a waiter in coffee club really rocks the world.
i just enjoy serving customers and getting complimentary feedbacks.
its so shocking that i receieve another complimentary about my good service yesterday
woot woot.
hehe
just being so fun.
its the 2nd one i have ever receieve, but i think today my standard drops from 100 pct to 1 pct
i am abit tired today hehe partly becuz i chatted with kuri from nutang yesterday about the DoS case. =(
i just wanna earn money actually.
thinking of working it out when i saw my revenue going up, its so cool.
but everything failed =(
i felt so sad i failed again.
i just wanna be rich. hehe(who dunwan to)
and i am still finding the way, the path, the method to be rich.
=D
i believe one day i will sure find one.
me start to wonder, am i a workoholic?
i just want to find a way to become rich.
i want to enjoy my life and retire early.
i want to buy private houses as soon as i can, so i can rent to people and getting the money =D

my life is full about money.
i guess the first thing is career.
too bad i hate studying =(
hehe

oh yeah, actually the main thing i wanted to blog is about writing what i feel about coffee club, i guess i am abit out of topic. =D

i gonna write down hmmm maybe not all but i will try my best to write all the names and what i find about u. dun worry i dun think i will write much bad things cuz u guys are nice =D
the nicest people i have seen, even better than my past few jobs.

so now must write from the top management first

ALEX
hehe, he is our area manager.
frankly u look super duper strict, especially when u gave me such a scary briefing when u asked me all the tough questions yet i cant answer. =D but when i had my ciabatta terriyaki sandwich, we chatted and i find u are really nice!
haha

BALAN
hehe, this one ar, our funniest store manager.
u are one of the funniest manager i have ever seen. a good manager i can say, know when to joke with us, and know when to be serious.
haha and all in ur mind in always 4D ( our buai biou)and EPL lol.

STEVEN
our assitant manager
u ar, old liao ar? haha always like to wear that spec that look like liang popo, cute sia. haha, u are nice lah. really funny, and good. but sometime when u ignore people very irritating leh. we asking u for permission u dun answer =(
but haha we still like u.

k now, enough of the managers, the following will be our 3 supervisors
DARREN
darren darren, haha u are my ar ka liao buddy. u abit ti ko leh. haha always say about girls. but nvm lah, we are guys, no guys dun talk about girls unless hes a gay. =3 but u super nice lah. haha, just love working with u. no stress.

PENLY
haha siao siao! u were from NAC coffee club outlet wor. no wonder people say u strict, but u also damn funny lah. always chat about porns. and u like to bully ah kheng sia. haha. love working with u now, but not when i started cuz u keep pointing my mistake, very irritating =D but still now no problem le, so we also can ar ka liao woot woot. haha, dun keep playing the same song pls =D
i listen to those songs until sian liao.

FAUZAN
i hope i am spelling ur names correctly, i cant spell names correctly actually =D
cuz we only work together once, and till now u still a trainee. wahaha, but u are great. someone who is cool with anything. u pick up skill fast haha. someone i can learn from.

done with supervisors, here are our full time staff i might not remember all but i try cuz we have a number of staff.

JACKSON
eh jackson, seriously hor i dun really like u. cuz u act so much like a supervisor and when u see things when needed to be clear u just walked away and act nth happened. bad sia u, but u are good looking lah, just hope i can look like u. =D

AH KHENG
haha ah kheng our bilingual guy. hehe, u power leh, can speak so many types of languages.(chinese, malay, thai, hokkien i think and even abit of english.)
power in IT. haha. and u are a good friend to talk to.

PURWA aka BEEP
haha, i dunno why balan name u as beep, but u are really damn power. a guy who really can work super well. u serve food damn fast sia, and can even hold so many stuff on a tray. haha, and haha u got the same fear i have too, itch =D

hehe i am not sure if there are only 3 full time stuff nia or maybe i have miss out, sorry if i miss out. =D
here are the rest part timers.

Surya
haha miss surya, known as the miss coffee club when so many guys say u pretty but i dunno why i dun feel u pretty. instead i find u are nicest and most friendly girl around in CCSG. efficient and experience. =D

Michelle
haha a perfectionist i can say, u are like jackson i can say. when i came in, u keep pin pointing my mistake sia, also irritated by u. but now i find u are okok lah. u treat this job seriously and its a good sign =d

Mei Li
haha u ar, looks like someone who just work for the sake of money, but i dunno what to say about u. very neutral =D

Siti
after hearing the stuff about u and ur family, i feel very sad for u =(
but cheers, every family have their own problem. me also have my problem.

Joey
xoxo haha dun try drugs anymore pls =d
its not good u know, but u are really nice to talk to. talk and nice. interesting guys

Eugene
haha bei hun kia =D
eugene ar eugene, i guess u aint reading my blog, cuz when u told me u are actually may's sister, i was super duper guper shocked!
haha did u know in primary school, me like ur sister leh =D
haha, anyway thx alot and very paiseh for driving me home everytime, like having free rides.

RIZAL
hehe power guy, got own motorbike sia. =D
just find u a power guy when u got a motor bike, damn cool =D
but dun slack too much k? hehe and dun bully the newbies

Nanda, Kelvin and David
haha i just put u 3 together since we know each other so long le. aiya i also dunno what to write, david u really very xiao qi leh, just becuz i dunwan sell u my celestial robe for 9 mil instead of 9.5 u angry with me =( for kelvin, haha u power guy, play game earn money, but i think u sure bored of it le, everyday scatter scatter scatter, 1 day 10 hours just to get super gem =(
nanda, haha DUN SMOKE K? u have lots of links in CCSG sia power. haha good luck for N lvls k. and stop playing so much, N lvls is very very important if u want to continue to O lvls. buddies for life XD

LAURA
haha the rich and clever girl in our outlet, power seh u got a car and stay in THE BAYSHORE. haha make me so envy and hate cuz i am jealous u are rich =D anyway pls dun give me faces just becuz u think u are better than me in work. =X

JOAN and AMANDA
kk, first of all i would like u welcome u 2 to CCSG. i garenteed u gals will like this job.

i think i am enough of this LONNNNNGGG post cuz its 4.30 am now and i feel like sleeping *yawn*yawn*

k now good luck guys and enjoy =D

2006-09-16T00:04:00.000+08:00

hehe this is my new blog! and it rocks to the core, simply no brainer blog. much better than blog spot i can say. =D
http://vinjia.nutang.com

2006-09-09T03:40:00.000+08:00

i have decided to take the password off, really.
dunno what am i thinking now as well. abit irritated.
everyone has own problem i really dunno what i am thinking as well.
seriously i hate it. i really am considering of moving out and rent a room staying alone. its really an agony and pain. but i really feel so bad.
i hate the fact my mother has a gangster background. and it sucks!
why i see so many has such a nice family background and i dun have any.
i really dunno what i am thinking. and it really a pain.
i really hope i can be the one i use to be, a guy who know what he wants to do.
i want to be a guy who can get the best result and study so hard just to please his daddy and mommy.
i want to be the guy who use to have a daddy fetching us to school with a mercedes.
i want to be a guy who use to have his daddy and mommy to organise some secret birthday for him. instead of giving a choice having his birthday in ritz carlton, yet he chose to be in pizza hut.
i want to be a guy who always goes oversea for holiday, loving, sharing and having fun.
i want to be the guy who has a sister to take of, having the chance to share what he loves to do.
i want to be the guy who can buy whatever he wants, just by asking his daddy and mommy about it and has it.
i want to be the guy who has so much love from his parents. everyday being such a wonderful life.
and i just want a happy family.
i really miss those days.
i miss daddy, i miss mommy, i miss fionn.
i really want to say a sorry.
i really want.
i thought going to my grandma is the best choice, but i am wrong. its a love that really cannot be taken.
i know my grandma really gave me so much love, pamper myself so much.
there is a lack in love.
i really knows how bad it is to be a human. god is bullying me, why does he gives me such an ill fated life.
i tried to tell myself, i am lucky as i am not like the people whom suffered in africa.
but why!
i know even they suffer, they do have the things i dun have. that is love.

i really miss those days when he fetch me to school everyday.
i miss those days when they buy me my favourite games.
i miss those days when they give me so much surprises in my birthday.
i miss those days we had holidays.
i miss those days we had our joy together
i miss everything
but...

i should really have said that sorry.
that sorry changed my future.
if i had choose to say a sorry, i wouldnt be in the lousy school.
i wouldnt be so stupid.
i wouldnt be having such a hard life.
a sorry is something we need to really say frequently.
it is something that helps and wont harm.

haiz.

2006-09-04T15:59:00.000+08:00

its being quite sometime i have not blog le. but everyday reading her blog. she seems to like someone wor. =( sure not me duh i know. haaha
anyway exam finally finish le. super tired of those studies. dun think can score for all. i just hope no supp papers for me.
and from that day when i finish exam, haha its the first day i work. but wu gui din work on that day. sian. first day abit sian friday also sian. but now getting more and more fun. cuz everyone there is nice. balan is nice, wugui is nice. and u know what. MAY's brother eugene working there wor!! wahaha. cant believe rite? this job really quite nice lah. i quite happy with this job =D.
now just getting bored, going to work soon in a few minutes time. haha. i was told me getting pay today. only 25 dollars. lol! so funny. this is my lowest pay check i have ever receive for my job.
i seriously looking for a girlfriend. haiz =( so sad. even balan asking me if i got any girl friend. =9
haha. left 5 mins more to get my butt off my seat and going work. lol. k lah me now take care and going off. i really wanna u to be happy. for all the girls i like, for all the girls i love. i have become very serious and mature. i hope u gals are happy and have a good relationship. no matter what. never give up.

2006-08-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

com is very laggy now. i dunno what to say. she finally unblocked me. seeing her pic in msn really makes me think of the past. i am feeling very confused now. she talked to me through msn, and her voice is still so sweet. and her smile really penetrate my heart. i really love the way she smile. so sweet. and her pic looks more mature and before. looks cool now. i just really feel so regretful. izzit my fault that i din spend my life on her? or i lost my feelings on her becuz of the new environment? and the new friends i made in tp? or its just what people usually had after being separated. =( i dunno how to talk to her. its a pain. do i just still like her?

2006-08-30T12:38:00.000+08:00

today. =D had accounting le lah, haha, quite irritating. last yr paper so easy like the short question only 1 part of our hole paper. we did more leh. haiz. but hehe, i dun think i will fail lah. cuz all the 3 short questions i have no problem. only the concepts and stuff in mcq i din study much. hhaa. not bad leh. left 1 paper le. which means tml only left 1 more paper. hee. =D now i can go sleep le. PLC, segmentation all stuff study le. woot woot!@@#@.

i feel like watching movie. haiz, want watch is can. but i want a girl to watch with me. its like so long never never go out with a girl alone le. haiz. =( i just want to watch lah. i miss that u know. no girls watch with me liao. grrr sob sob sob. if she is the one watching with me how nice this would be. =9
too bad she isnt my real type.
heehee. and also i not prepared in these stuff. i seriously did a reflection about why i cant go into a long relationship. i think i dunno how to love. really dunno. =(
i keep thinking, what is wrong whenever i have a relationship, its becuz when i have a girlfriend, no more challenge so no more love for her? or its becuz i am lazy and dunwan to bother to look for them? or izzit becuz i am really too busy? haiz, it seem after 1 relationship it became a very cold relationship instead of a hong hong lie lie one. seriously dunno why. yet when i cant get a girl i like, i will spend lots of time on her, lots of money, lots of love and this and that. haiz. i hope i really have no more bad in love life.

2006-08-30T01:44:00.000+08:00

hello peeps, hehe just finish studying accounting. i dunno is last yr paper easy or what. but seriously i dun have much problem doing as long i know the terms. really dun understand leh. ehee. its like just need to know how to do adjusted trial balance, income statement aka P&L, statement of change in equity and also last one the balance sheet. seems to be quite leh lo. quite confident. talking about this, today had CSA, really tough sia, did study abit, but i think i had pay off for not putting much effort. CSA sian lah, only when come to practical then fun. so sian lo, call us learn the stuff and terms. haiz, din expect doing well. i just want to pass all okie le. no need to take supp papers, then i can reconsider whether i should change course or not.

2006-08-28T17:16:00.000+08:00

Down by Lin Jun Jie
I can't believe it Tell me I'm dreaming
That we are still we

It was amazing Said you were lucky
That you found me

It was on a rainy day that we met
You didn't have a place to go
I said we just met so lets go slow but no
You just tell me to keep you from the cold
Sorry I can't take it
Why did u fake it Why did we kiss

And I'm just down
You left me with a note without a sound
I figured I must have been such a child
You'll never know how much I've been around
How my heart just frowns
If you're down
I'll be your teddy bear I'll be your clown
I'll take you round and round and
If you don't mind I cound be your standing ground
Even if that means I'd drown

And baby that'll be my one last vow

2006-08-27T20:15:00.000+08:00

haiz, really no mood to study. =(
so sad.
when i want to study, i felt very tired. i can see things properly now.
like my eye is strained. i feel like playing game only.
went to view a website today. a testimonial on how someone became rich.
its sounds so real and i really want to try out. haiz. its just like very real.
since last year i have been thinking of this. but the start need to pay the company some money. not alot though, but then i feel like trying out. the only thing i need is a debit card. i guess next year i will be trying out. if its works then woot! i will be rich. they are paying foreign currency. haha. can get up to 300 bucks per day wor. somemore USD leh which means its 500 plus per day for SG dollars. sounds really good. =D
thinking and thinking really very interested in it. hee. dunno lah. haiz, i just want to get rich. everyday think of money. i really hate studies, and now really no mood to touch on management. if i dun touch, i guess i will be failing, and i think i will. haiz, management is so tough and strict. i am still wondering what is needed to study for management. super sian leh, study study study. really no mood to study at home. haiz, since i finish econs i have no more mood in taking any papers. grrr. super sad.
i have decided what i am going to spend on the money i work. haha, 1st on my license next year, i want to learn how to drive, then can help me in future. ehehe, then next is on game, i think i going to spend around 300 bucks to buy new gears for my char. going to play Warrior-Water and Warrior-Fire. heee. the next is put in savings i want to try to get a thousand and open the POSB savings account, then apply for debit card next year. so i wont touch OCBC one. actually nth much also liao. i just want to earn money and save lah. then in future can buy house, buy car, buy this and that, and the best is. start a business of what i want.
made some pictures recently. 1 for sheri, 1 for songhan and 1 for myself. quite nice leh. i like sheri one alot. got the fire.

haha i post here bah so long never put pics.

this one is me

songhan

and sheri de, my favourite art piece.

haha k lah i try to go study. must focus
FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU! ahha

2006-08-26T19:56:00.000+08:00

hi peeps, finally i have a good news, the good news is,,, i have finally found a new job. woot woot! the job is simple i think, haha i am going to be a waiter!! where? its in COFFEECLUB! hehe, going to work with musha(nanda) and oni(kelvin-jiahong) and sinners(david)soon. hehe, pay not very much lah, but i think will be fun loving, cuz working with friends. haha they should be guiding me there yay. seriously very happy. haha. cuz i will have a new income again. dunno got CPF or not, but i dun care. if got CPF then also not bad, cuz in future can buy house using CPF. hehee, just feeling happy. had econs yesterday, i really dunno can pass or not, but i really tried my best liao. if cannot pass i really nth to say. felt difficult cuz i expected to know how to answerr all the question. but in the end there are some that i am not sure about. heee. just feeling super good mood now, later going to study management first.
i have came out with a new plan, in my virtual life, i gonna play a new char, really new. 1 with the name Rain~ and Saga~. what you think of the name? nice or not? i wonder leh. haha Rain~ will be rb as a water tao i think in lvl 130 while Saga~ will be rb as fire tao in lvl 130 too. since i discover warrior so easy to play. i mean easy and fun loving to train. then i have a good spear, so training spear isnt much problem also. heee, dunno lah. must study first. then in future i will have 1 water 1 fire. which are my favourite. dunwan BabyDave liao really sian with that char. in future going to give my cousin that account. heee yay! k now i go rest, then later go study. =D

2006-08-24T23:05:00.000+08:00

i am currently feeling very depressed. really dunno what to say. but feel super irritated with this exam. why in the first place am i still taking this exam. since its all about retailing fashion good. while i am long pursuing my Food and Beverages career. haiz, seriously getting very irritated. i really am getting super irritated. haiz, for now at least i have settle in mine, tml i am going to ask the advisors and get them help me to enrol myself into that course i guess. hope i wont be in a deep trouble for the next sem. haiz, my stomach very painful now. and well. hehee, i will study hard, if i cant get into that course( i dun think i cant, since its a new course) i still can be in this course. yay. make the best decision le. hope i have no longer make the 2nd mistake. pursue for my dream! money food heaven! =D

2006-08-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

haiz, this few days dun understand, whenever i finish listening to a song, i get super irritated. and has no mood to do anything. i cant concentrate well also. i go to play game and the result is bad also. haiz. my body now feeling super hot. even i am i an air condition room. i want to study, but when i touch on books, i keep thinking of other stuff. on game, what and how i can make the chars better bla bla. alot stuff bothering me lah. kinda quite irritated. grrr, and i really dunno if i should continue playing babydave or carry on with a fire tao. just in a bad mood and i mean it. really bad. =( haiz, and now really got alot of money problem. i am intending to save up for a new computer. new computer, good items for RUm, getting good items for sylvia, getting good items for wei jie aka apple. alot of things sia. grrrr. haiz. so irritating, and i also want to open up a personal savings account on posb sia. sian and need 500 bucks. super irritating. =(

2006-08-20T23:14:00.000+08:00

just came back home from my big aunty's house for baby rhys's full month since birth.
and super many people. even my papa also go. he still ignoring me. =( guess now since no one is reading my blog. i guess i can write whatever i feel le bah.
papa came along with that women, she perm her hair, super ugly. maybe becuz i dun like her bah, i cant forget how much pain when i stay with them for the past 3 yrs. lots of stuff reminded my past, really alot. see xin ling so cute, and she reminds me how playing i am when i was at her age. i cant forget how notti i was when i was kindergarten and primary school. alot of stuff happened.
kintergarten tore my book in front of teacher becuz i dunwan to do homework.
then keep dunwan to do homework
then primary school also dunwan do homework then went to throw the homework in the rubbish bin.
haiz, so many stuff happened and now i am already in poly, its really like many stuff happened over the years. and now yr 2007 is coming left 4 more months. so fast hor. haiz, sometimes i dun understand, i tried keeping all the stuff to myself and now i din expect i told shile so many stuff. grrrrr, why u make me tell u so much that is bothering me. haiz sad lah.
i really need to reflect on the stuff i spend, its no longer the past of what i am, and i discover the money i have in bank is really lesser and lesser. need to pull up the amount again. i want the digits i use to have. and i believe i can do it. actually since i have no problem with these stuff. i guess i gonna try.
from next month onwards, i guess i am going to work. work work work and earn more money. i am thinking 1st month pay i going to spend all on CO, getting a new char with full socket set (fire lvl 127- fire lvl 125 name RUm),a water-water name Duuckie and a water-trojan name Makiyo- yes my idol cuz she is pretty.
talk about makiyo, i really like her alot. cuz she has a very beautiful hair and a very attractive eye, and her shoulder is not broad. she is someone like my ideal girl friend for appearance. like the girl i like in my class. hehee. anyway the girl i like is not really i like. she has some attitude problem sia, i thought she can be bullied easily and very nice person. i am actually wrong, she is nice when she is in good mood, but can be super nasty and ignorance when she in bad mood sia. not the type i like. i hope i can have a girlfriend who is like SYLVIA SAW SWEE SIN! hahaa. i type ur name out! hahaha!! in terms of attitude lah. ringi ar u are not that bad. ur name sylvia is nice too and the best is u dun look bad lah. i am serious about asking u as my girl leh. u should consider, and i am saying if no guys want u, i want u. such a nice girl, say until u so bad, dun look good meh? u look okok lah, not those got beggar hairstyle and got sulky appearance. ahaha. and hor dun call me dave pls. i only like to use it as a nick. but i prefer people calling me jia hao, more sexy. or unless u help me find a better christian name lah. i still use Dave cuz its her who made for me de. though i dun really like it.
haiya, sian exams are coming, i need to go study soon. tml my grandpa's daddy's death ani sia. and need to go with grandma to pray that ding dong(xin ling taught us de, calling great grandpa ding dong) hahaha. she so cute, 2 yrs old nia so cute liao. in future sure got alot of heart breakers. hahaa, me this uncle say her until so good. heee heee, need to sleep now tml need to pray that ding dong hahahaa!! me super rude sia. =_= hope my great grandpa very nice not angry with me.
and tml going to start choinging to study le.

2006-08-19T19:09:00.000+08:00

haha. finally not many people read my blog. hi my cuteh prescilla.
hehe. yesterday and today have made 2 blogskins myself, 1 for shile, 1 for yang ling.
dunno why i make for them. but got the feeling to make for them. hahaa. for shile one is http://shiletestblog.blogspot.com and yangling one is http://yangstestblog.blogspot.com.
not much mood actually.
oh ya. haha

i have thought of a few new services. if you guys want to buy new computer. i can help u make one cheap. as low as 599 bucks. and i will direct deliver to ur house somemore. so good hor. and if u want me to make ur stuff better. i just help u do. really very cheap. only abit of profit lah. haha. all the way still think of money.

and hor, haha now thinking of playing more EO, haha then go collect many many many codes then go sell 1 set of codes 9 bucks sia. collect 100 is 900 woot woot! haha. now i go start doing. heehee

2006-08-18T16:45:00.000+08:00

oh yeah. done at last. no one can reads my blog now without password. its super duper guper muper luper save! haha, if u guys want to try to hack in. haha, u gonna regret it by click so many yes and no. hahahahahaha!!! i really enjoy playing these crappy games. hehe. if i got time then play more. make more crappy java script. then i can play with the people. like her, wahahha, want to see my blog? call me? no way! haha. me now very evil. its not that i am bad or what. its the meaning of blog. i am typing out for my feelings, i am a human, i blog to throw all what i feel. i blog to tell myself not to do it again. its a pain when u dun have any1 to talk to and yet have to face so much pressure. its a pain, being an outcast in the class. i really dun understand why she hates me so much. i say bye to her, she ignore me! i became speeechless, nth to say. and i look at her, she turn me off! its a pain to be rejected. i dunno y. since i am such an outcast, i dun understand, why does that whole gangs keep disturbing me. its really too powerful. she has so much attitude and no one hates her. not that i hate her, but she forced me to. i hate no one, but when i am angry i just say i hate. but it became nth after sometime. its an agony. girls really cannot be offended. no way. i am such a failure. a future bai jia zi. i thought i can be so nice to everyone and everyone likes me like how people like me in conqueronline. they treat me like real buddy. only that they are online people who i dunwan to know much, only a few which we have met. but its just different. i dun understand why i have such a high reputation online and not in a real world. izzit becuz the way i look brings hatred? actually i know its the way i talk. i really dun understand and dunno how to change the way i talk. i am just direct. i just like to talk all the crap and i dun care and dun like to think before i talk. and this makes me offend so much. and i really dun understand, if i have so much problem in talking, why does poh teck being so nice to me. we seem like having no problem between each other unless he act nia. enough of blogging. yay no one can read happy le. anyway, i now am doing some small business, if u want to make a computer, make a custom blogskin, buy dbs, buy account, buy PSP umd. i can help u to program and sell them to u. =D

2006-08-18T13:03:00.000+08:00

heeee, finally, i have found a way to limit people from reading, but then still have way to hack in. grrrr, the way is quite irritating lah. if u can read my blog now u should know. cuz currently no one can read. basically, u need to make my blog as ur homepage. then there is no way that the website can go back. hence no choice the blog have open my blog without any link. haiz.=( still not very secure. but then still good enough, at least i can stop these indecent people to read my blog... then they wont give stupid comments, its my choice to blog what i want what, the reader can choose not to read. but i treat this blog as a chu qi tong. whatever i am unhappy about i will just go throw all the stuff into here. then i will forget and be happy. if i people cant blog this and that. then what are they going to do? they can say what? nth? or just lie to myself and say that that person is great, that person is the nicest person i have seen, that person is so loving. crap lo!
i dun care now. i now still figuring how to stop people reading, which means totally only people who read my blog need to go through by the password. and not the bug. then i can complain well and know who can read who cant. i hate class lah. people just dun like me, even she is ignoring me. =( haiz. i really like her. but its all what i have done, i dunno why people dun like me still. what is the meaning of being very fake. stupid lah. i learn my lesson le. and i now must stop. cuz i go tell kenny about the way to come in my blog without the password. grrr!!! haiz irritating lah. sometimes i very stupid, i think not only sometimes should be all the time, i always talk without thinking twice if i should say. i am too direct le. =( nvm lah.
exams coming anyway cant play too much, cant say too much. 1 week wont see her. =( 1 week wont see them =)but i think i will make use of the 1 week and study hard, i must not let down my group!
hahaha. finally we have some good result for our project, we score 1st for ECONS!! woot! happy leh. and consistently 2nd for other projects, except CSA i am not sure, cuz different group but well, got a B+ for CSA and i think we should still be the top 5 at least among, at least i have not done anything wrong. should i give people my blog password? i feel like giving, but even today, mr lim said, no one can be trusted, friends are not friends, they are the one who betrays u, the people who are greedy and selfish. and when they need help they know u will help. but when u need help, they are the one running away first. there is no longer such thing as true friends. now i have learnt my lesson, ever since i have lost my super necky. i know i will never trust anyone again. last time i told myself not to believe anyone. but why i suddenly change my attitude. i think i have changed alot. no longer the one that use to be. now i look fat, look stupid, look poor, look sulky. =( i have no more motivations, and i dun understand y nowadays i ate lunch again. its like 1 yr i have not ate lunch, and ever i came to poly. i seems to have stop my routine of not having lunch. well, i guess human change. and i hope human change for the better.
later if i have time, gonna watch tian wai fei xian again. geee, its getting really nicer. 10 more disc and i am done watching. now i stop playing game, stop this and that. now my hobby is watch vcds and dvds. yay! haha. after finish watching tian wai fei xian. gonna borrow smallville and watch. hehe. hopefully, by next year i can have a new girl friend again. then can have movie marathon throughout. i just love to watch movie. weixiang gengwei and uncle wanna watch. but everytime when we watch, haiz, only 1 guy going, then some dunwan to go. then 1 guy and 1 guy, i seriously think this is like gay sia. so never go. haiz, when i got time i write down what tian wai fei xian is about, i guess this is one of the best love god-human love story. really good. and think gonna start watching some korean and jap series. now its a serious craze watching these shows. like currently the wo jiao jin san shun. it seems not a bad show. the opening is interesting, and the story talks about cake and pastries. hehe. k now, gonna start studying. may the force be with me, then i will have the motivation to study. yay.

2006-08-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

haiz, izzit really a pain living in this world? i see many people in this world who have the abilty to live in this world, not working, not studying, just earn money by renting and they can survive. why cant i do that. am i already fortunate?
becuz i have no financial problem at all. no this and that problem. no need to worry about no money studying, worry i have no money to go to school, worry i have debts.
hmmm, i think i really need to reflect. another thing i am concerning, why is my public relation is so bad. and what is mean being fake to people. i really dunn understand. man i really need to buck up. its all the bad stuff about me. its so difficult to make my life wonderful. need to have alot of hardwork. and its true. its all hardwork. the only pressure that i am facing is only my studies. i tried to carry on studying becuz of the people around me. especially my aunty. they want me to be good and can earn good money in future, and i dunwan to dissapoint them. i hope i wont.
should i say i am ill- fated? or should i say i make my life sucks? even my grandma isnt happy about me, for the fact i have played too much, i am really addicted in online games, cuz there are too many friends i had are playing that game too. really! songhan, sheri bla bla. all my fellow friends that i consider nice to me. haiz, i want to quit but it is bugging me. i wish the game server close down, then i will have no problem of playing too much too. haiz. and this game is making me sad. becuz of this game, i earn money and lost money, and becuz of this, i lost my super necky +2 becuz of putting a wrong price. haiz. a 45 dollars necklace i put $4.5 makes me so sad. super bad mood now. 45 dollars is my daily pay which means i lost a day of my pay. or something. my bad english.
exams coming soon. good luck everyone.

and oh ya!
haha i declare i gonna say hello to all the main papers for exams! yay.
i din fail any in course work so happy

accounts c+ project b+
management d+ project b
marketing c project dunno yet but i feeling should be super good
csa b+ project b+
econs still dunno. hopefully a b project also not sure but dun think will be bad cuz we did put effort. for all the subjects actually. =D

2006-08-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

=( super duper guper muper bad mood!
=( its all becuz on my public relation!
=( i dont understand what is the problem!
=( why does she hates me so much!
=( i din even say any bad thing about her!
=( she keeps giving me attitude!
=( worst still!
=( the girl i like hates me.
=( cannot deny one!
=( feeling tells the whole picture!
=( whoever you hate, whoever you like!
=( it is difficult to deny and lie.
=( sad!
=( wish i could cry
=( im not that naive
=( its really not easy to be me!
(last 3 phrase stated by the song SUPERMAN- A SUPER DUPER GUPER MUPER NICE song)

=*( i am fat
=*( no one likes me
=*( i am stupid
=*( i am outcast

=) i pass my course work!
marketing C
accounting C+
management D+
=) i finally know how to use the grider!
=) i finally knows what to sell!
=) i finally finished listened to the SONG (Tian Tian Shou Ai Ni)
NICEEE!!

2006-08-13T23:54:00.000+08:00

how to make password for blog? any1 knows can teach me? =( super duper bad mood. nowadays i have been thinking of money money money. haiz. money dunwan to blog le. blog dun earn me a single cent. =(

2006-08-11T23:14:00.000+08:00

This Is How Typical Italy Soccer Players Train.
Wierd And Funny Huh

2006-08-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

depressed, thinking of changing course soon. i very sad, pissed. over studies, over love, over everything. i know what is my motive, i want to slack. i want to feel i can study very easily. i dun understand what people can do. some people just like never study, can play, can work, can get good results. you know who you ar. i really envy you. earn money to spend, can play game. and even can get such a good result. haiz. sad lah. why do i have such a difficult problem with this course. =( sad lah. no mood

2006-08-09T19:19:00.000+08:00

before i wanna say what happened to me.
i solemnly wanna say something.
that is happy national day. =D
wahahaha. lame rite?
sounds like so serious. as if got people die.
haha. today is public holiday!
so shoik.
morning, went out with grandma to the temple to pray pray.
haha. i seriously dun trust in this thing. so feel praying only to appease my grandma.
dunno why.
haha, i still believe there is only 1 god( the fate)
haha.
then after that went to plaza singapura to meet with xii. funny lah!
i was thinking of meeting her in plaza singapura. but in the end, she went to ngee ann. =_=
so funny lo. cuz bo bian, need to buy present for aunty aka godmom's birthday. haha
at first thought of buying gucci's perfume. then stupid xii. bring me here and there, say there got gucci shop. in the end still go to isetan see see, somemore no gucci boutique. sian. then bo bian, tired and bored, then go buy ralph lauren's perfume. bought the middle size one. cost 135 bucks sia. abit heartach. but nvm lah. she bought so many stuff for me le. give me so much money for schooling bla bla. then say want to watch movie( i think she wanted to watch the ant battle or something) with this irritating xii. in the end say say le, took mrt say want to go city hall. then dunno why, as we talk suddenly we sat the green lane and go all the way to bedok. =_=. then end up not watching anything wor. haha!! we so blur lo. hehex, then never do anything, like that then go home. that was around 3pm nia. then when reach home, preparing for soccer, suddenly gengwei said cancel, sian. grrrr. haha. and now OMG! took some pic with xii and intend to upload sia. she go delete without me knowing. =_= my bad sister...
nvm yesterday me make a mini me of myself. haha, think i upload this pic le.
and hor. just now saw something, hmm. thinking what is the problem. me keep asking myself, do i like her or love her. she is pretty. eh grrrr, me should stop thinking of these stuff le. =_=
haha, now going to 8 le. fireworks going to start, thinking of going to see.
and oh ya! just when me was still in plaza singapura, saw so many jewel shop. haiz, and saw 1 very nice pendant+necky that cost 200 plus. thinking of buying it for her when her birthday comes. but her next birthday is next year le. =_=. haha, sian lo. or still thinking if i should buy her a pet( a bunny? hamster? or puppy?) haha really dunno sia. huiyi ah yi ask me to ask her if she got pet at home or no pet. but the problem is, i rarely talk to her sia. haiz. then if talk to her, she sure will think think de mah.
nvm lah, will just be waiting for her. even she dun like me, i will wait for the next girl. i got my cuteh baobei le. =D

hehe its me and doctor evil. =D

now only me.

hehe. enough le. =D

2006-08-08T19:30:00.000+08:00

hello everyone.
today sunny day.
but sunny = si bei hot!
grrrr.
yesterday had some durain and now very very heaty.
haha.
today is national day eve!!!
gonna say HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!
we are singapore, singaporean =_=
wahaha.
quite good mood today. cuz i have a BIG BIG GOOD NEWS!!!
haha, dun think too much. =_=
i still havent become a papa.
the good news not so big.
just that today i had our project grades back!
yay!!
haha. so happy. my group leads the 2nd position in the class with a B+. woot!!
haha shoik sia.
then teacher told me my peer evaluation is the highest in group!!
haha!! so funny wor. i think its becuz i rate myself very very well for myself. all the strongly agree =D
and becuz my group did very well for management project. that means, I HAVE PASSED MY COURSE WORK!! WOOT!!
so happy wor.
haha, i am not going to let myself down. hopefully. gonna study hard for management. and get at least a C. =D
weeeeeeee. really happy lah!!! ahaha. now left marketing that i am worry at. really worry marketing and management i can only take supp paper. hehe. now think no need le. cannot slack too much now =D
haha, enough of this good news le, now abit of my bad news,
haha, the bad news is, i am not going to meet my psp for today and tml. haiz.
thought she will return me sia. in the end she lend her cousin sia. abit angry lah, cuz its my stuff and she lent to people as if its hers. i dun mind they using it. but then be systematic mah. ask for permission first i also happy. haiz sian lah. no offense actually, but i have feeling the battery of my psp sure got problem le. so many people use. the way of charging sure different. then sure will have problem le lo. grrrr. see she charge my psp, already know this will be the result. guess i too good to many people le. (Told myself not to lend people my favourite gadgets anymore.)
haiz, haiz, haiz. sian lah. today went to tampines st 21 ( block 201) with poh teck hehe. met favien near the bus stop. the first thing he say was happy national day. ahhaa, he should add an eve. hehe.
went there to have my lunch. had the bahguteh. very nice. but quite expensive sia. haiz.
bahguteh 4 bucks per bowl. small bowl somemore, then the salted veggie 1 buck, and the most expensive one is the zhu jiao(pork leg) haha 5 bucks!! haha but big plate lah. very nice, eat until very very full. so full that had difficulty walking. and oh ya, becuz the kopitiam we ate really very very busy and big, gonna congratz aunty leh! she sign the contract over the stupid Onion(Union) with the coffee shop for the gas service! woot! haha sure earning BIGGER money wor. =D and haha.
very shockingly wor. haha, alot of people keep guessing hard and thinking who i like. =_=
so bo liao leh, was told that many people think the her1 was her2. dun understand why all think its her2. =_= scary lo. why cannot be other people? cannot be her3, her4, her5 meh? lame lah.
haha. and i also dun really care about this stuff le. just a crush nia mah. =_=. no need to be so serious de rite? i also dun care. just happen to see her nice. but dunno leh, haha no offense but i show weixiang her pic le. wx say she dun look good wor, even though i think she looks nice. haiz. dun care lah.!!! haha. me also not handsome. =( dunwan to think too much about these stuff and also ever since me and her1000000 broke. really very sad sia. not prepared for another relationship le. i want to be rich! MONEY MONEY MONEY! wahaha
money the most important think in this world, no money = no friendship = no girl friend. if got money confirm + garenteed got girlfriend de. but the girlfriend see the money more than ur look. yiiiii, haha i say until girls like slut sia. haha, only saying some lah. and the who haha is who lo.
i aiming to buy my first condominium first, then aim other stuff bah. haha. sian le.
oh 1 more thing i must say, saw silvera today. grrr, but she never see me wor. wonder how she is and her boyfriend. think her boyfriend stopped working in watson le. haha. enough of crap le, now must go "choing" again. later go eat somemore durian. tml national day no school. yay, can have soccer training with weixiang and gengwei. hopefully kinchong not there. if not sure kena suan again. haiz. =(

see i so hardworking, even when i blog, also got portal's strategy on planning. hehe

2006-08-07T16:45:00.000+08:00

just came back from school. today got extra class (make up lesson for wednesday-national day)
haiz. so bored. oh well. when to aquarium shop today near my house. thinking of buying some tortoise for her. =D
and there were 2 shops.
the 2 shops are Darwin Aquarium (big shop) and the other one is Tanjong Katong Aquarium (Small Shop)
i feel the big shop really very very nasty sia. they have a digital recorded voice system.
and the voice system keep replaying something very insulting to the small shop.
it says: lai ar lai ar. darwin aquarium darwin aquarium. jin lai kan ar jin lai kan ar. kan kan bu yong qian. nong po cai yao qian. lai ar lai ar. darwin aquarium darwin aquarium. lai da jian de bu yao qu xiao jian de. xiao jian you de da jian ye you. da jian you de xiao jian mei you. lai ar lai ar.
wtf man.
if translated into english. it means darwin aquarium is calling people to come. come to see, no need to pay money, pay only if broke. and this is the insulting part. come see see, dun go to the small one. whatever the small shop have, the big one also have. whatever the big one have, the small one dun have. WTH!! its really very very insulting sia. see they say the small shop until like this. i wonder how the small shop survive so long. =( and seriously, the big shop sells stuff really cheaper from what my uncle told me.

and well. i have decided, gonna buy most likely gucci perfume for my aunty. (wonder if she will think too much, think i say her smelly) dun think she will. =D

and OH YA!! OMG!! QIU DAN AND GARY READ MY BLOG. waaaaa.
so many people read my blog sia. scary. i like so long never blog, thought no one will read. then they read. wonder if she will read mine? hmmmm. haha

and hor. hahaha. hopefully suhanna now got read my blog. very sorry. think i not coming online for today. =D cuz now must study abit hehe. dun think i will study. just say say nia. =D maybe later i play winning eleven this and that. haha.
here are the link for u bah. =D
and i think i will just put all the types as well. just see all. geee. =D

YouAreMighty

YouAreMyFriend

JustGotOwned

DoYouHaveEpilepsy

Waits.For.TF2

haha and this one i dunno what to say wor. Cannot anyhow post. later people think i like her. =_=
haha. this one i think i do it for my baobei bah =D.
its youaremylove. hehee

YouAreMyLove

this one is the custom aninotes. ahaha
and the sake to have a free one, i use the preview link =D
wahaha. if want to make exact domain need 1.50dollars as donation haiz. too bad me dunno how to donate. hahaa.

and u guys can try. its very very fun. actually all this are found from poh teck. =D
and its very fun just change put ur name in front of the domain. example if ur name is john and u want to make one on youaremyfriend. simply just put ur name on the www.john.youaremyfriend.com or if u want to put peter in youaremighty. simply just put the name on www.peter.youaremighty.com =D fun and easy rite? hehe. go trick on people with justgotowned function. looks very dirty. =D especially when u are insulting someone. hehe.

oh well. hehe nth much to post le =D
today nth really much to say. haha. gonna go have dinner then go choing my "challenge"
tml getting my psp back. yay. ^^

2006-08-06T19:06:00.000+08:00

today nth much to do. so day dream alot since i have quit internet gaming. hehe. tml also going to start revising my work le. must study hard and show these idiots who think i am stupid. i wanna prove i am just lazy. =D
well today while daydreaming. something strike my mind.
that is the most common christian names/ chinese names.
haha.
i do have a number of friends sharing the same name. let me list them out.

Michelle (3)
-my ex shelly
-current "baobei"=D
-and my class de michelle.

Jacqueline (3)
-Jaslyn's sister
-4/5 de
-and again my class de =_=

Darren (2)
-That Smart Ass who is now in vj. grrr!!!
-Now That lazy ass!! haha darren ar. study hard hor. =D

Brian(2)
-May's Sister
-Stupid Lsjice

Sebastian (3)
-Weijie My Cuzzin
-SHENG XIANG LONG! waahaha
-Divinegon.

Edwin (2)
-my class de yan dao kia.
-my sec 1 music teacher. lmao

Kelvin (3)
-mumu
-my dad's designer
-LinJunJie(not the singer)

haha guess around here bah.

for Chinese de.

JiaHao!!!(3)
-haha me lo.
-my sec school friend
-my pri school friend
heng all look not bad. if not i feel so discraceful =D

XinYi(6)
OMG This One Really Alot!!!
-My sec 3-4 classmate.
-My Cousin's Cousin i think or niece.
-My Primary School de.
-That Dao Dao de Girl!!!
-My British Cousin Friend =)
-and her. Dunwan to Say le. Make me angry nia =(

ShiHui(3)
-My DaJie
-My Sec Friend
-Bing's GirlFriend. =D

Cant think any much more le.
haha
anyway, yesterday had the national day dinner with the government in Bishan.
haha
so sian wor.
the food suck.
really not nice leh.!!!
its a set course meal.
first dish looks okie. cold plate.
2nd dish damn sian lah! shark fin (With Shredded Chicken Drumstick WTF)
3rd dish still okie lah. was ginseng chicken.
4th dish looks not nice but taste quite alright. was the broccoli with some sea cucumber. i dunno if i spell correctly.
5th dish was still okie was the big big fish which i like alot. the flat flat one. =D
6th dish haiz. see le also sian. why got set course meal give this de. was the 5 spices prawn roll. sian lah!!!
7th dish i cant remember
but the last dish is actually very simple. that is the DESERT! yummy.
was mango pudding and the yam thinggi.
very nice.
haha. overall still SIAN! =D

haiz. so bored also.
reformatted my com today.
no more conquer, no more games.
oh ya, anyway tml haha. think need to go to the sian shopping centre to shop alot again le. haiz. =(
need to buy:
shampoo
CounterStrike CD
My Aunty's Birthday present.
buying her present is a real headach sia!!
dunno what to buy.
LV's handbag?
Gucci's Perfume?
Or What?
Sian She so rich sia!!
yet my grandma wants me buy for her a present.
haiz,
irritating.
=( any suggestion for what i should give her?

haiz.
i really like her. hope she could give me a chance. god bless me in love pls.
if not i think i need to go to find the yue lao le. then go pray pray for love affinity =D

who do you like most among the 3 girls? =D

2006-08-05T17:37:00.000+08:00

OMG!
not only 1 read my blog! more than 1 sia!!
waaa.
pohteck reads blog.
the sky going to fall le. =(

k lah
today have lots of activities.
haha.
same as usual, went out to play pool with weixiang and gengwei.
then play lan( counter strike)
then eat big breakfast in mc.
then bought a large fries and large coke.
and then went to hawkker centre eat grass jelly.
so expensive sia.
grass jelly + longan = 1.90 (only 4 longans)
grass jelly + the sweet seed = 1.90
grass jelly + longan + sweet seed = 2.60
never have eaten such an expensive longan in a hawkker centre sia.

then went to the game disc shop to buy 1 game. not me buy. weixiang buy de.
he damn bo liao sia.
yesterday use msn call to call me. =_=
then still can chat until so happy.
and when my grandma came in to my room.
she saw me talking to a computer.
as if i siao de.
haha
then i told them about it.
they keep taking it as a joke.
then keep suaning me.
grrrr
haha.
yesterday also went out to eat with uncle and aunty.
haha.
and baby xin ling is sooooo cuteee.
haha
i really wonder who took my phone and took her pic wor.
here are the 2 pics taken =D

hehe.
actually yesterday and today really very happy.
but something spoils my mood.
the stupid conquer gm go send me to bot jail sia.
haiz which means i kena ban.
i also din bot alot.
just abit abit nia.
then go to bot jail le.
conqueronline sucks lah..
irritating.
selling that account soon.
then confirm le.
i going to quit the game.
and stop playing le.
haha
actually i also sian le.
now happy thing is that i have gotten out of the game addict le =D
can focus on studies.
i tell myself.
i must not let people who looks down on me.
especially haha. no need to say de.
attitude tells everything.
=D
i will choing for this 2 weeks.
then get good grades for all the subjects.
but hopefully i can take the paper and not the supps.
haha.

me in the pic. wahaha

2006-08-04T17:13:00.000+08:00

o.0
got people tag on my board. sia lah!! i din expect wor. hmm wonder who u are.
pohteck?
su?
shile?
or who sia?
hehe.
well, went for a hair cut today.
and
yay!!
no more project meetings le.
finally clear le.
wahaha.
but something irritated me just now during the q & a session with mr lim.
idiot lah.
stupid et.
being et really so extra meh?
even answers also want to say so much.
and the answers given wrong sia
f lah.
if dunno dun kei kiang mah.
why say until so pro
then in the end embarass us sia.
somemore she leader.
grrrr
idiot lah.
now i wonder if we do well or not.
somemore when we walk out of the class.
stupid sia, she still do the yes! action. =_=
as if very successful.
anyway also no more project with her le.
haha.

i look very qian bian hor? =X

2006-08-03T21:35:00.000+08:00

finally. tml is the last day for our project le.
now actually very busy de. but very tired also.
today really work like hell lah. rachel went off for her piano lesson.
leaving us alone.
haiz.
she leader somemore.
then important day she got an exam.
grrrr.
dun feel like blogging.
quite irritated.
gonna meet my babyshell soon.
yay.
i really dunno who i like. =(
my babyshell? or her.
haiz.
my babyshell i din meet her before. still really like stranger.
but her. i really dunno what to classify leh. =(
she treats me as her friend? or enemy?
really dunno.
from the start of the time when i come into this institute.
seeing her eye.
she looks really very faminine and pretty.
i really dunno how to say.
till now i just feel of keeping quiet.
but how long am i going to stay quiet?
till me get another girl?
and she dunno about it?
haiz =(
but i have such a strong feeling she and her friends hates me.
dunno lah. grrrr.
somehow really dun like the feeling of love.
=(
pursuing a love = bringing misery, bitterness, sadness

anyway this saturday i have the honour to go and have dinner with the government. woot! and you know what. the table next to us is one of the big minister. yay. gonna wear very formal le. =D

stupid pic rite?

haha. i am a spy =D

2006-08-02T18:54:00.000+08:00

Aujourd'hui énième beaucoup pour faire et à blog. Est allé faire un cours comme ordinaire. Le si bei sian lo. Différente conférence. Pourquoi l'administration de paroles creuses être un amusement et aimant le sujet comme econs. Je crois qu'econs est le meilleur le. Facile non difficile et simple. Mais en enseignant maintenant sur la macroéconomie, donc son plus difficile en comparaison du vieux.
Avait notre en ligne surpassent l'épreuve aujourd'hui. Haiz, complètement un échec. Tant de personnes ont réussi 14 et j'ai seulement réussi 12.5 de 15 marques. Elle a marqué des marques complètes. Vraiment très puissant. Personne ne le lui remarque seulement. L'emploi agréable je peux dire. Mais la vis de sa chaîne clé ou quelque chose tombent. J'ai vraiment voulu l'aider à le chercher. Mais trop mal poh teck est là. Si pas je prendrais mon temps en l'aidant à trouver. Triste vraiment. Elle me devient très froide. Je ne sais pas que j'ai fait mal et l'offense. Elle me traite juste très froidement. Pas seulement elle, c'est les filles dans la classe. Seulement shile, michelle, su, li le tintement qui n'est pas froid à moi. Lo triste. Pourquoi sont je tellement comme un exclu et pourquoi bis ils m'aiment. Même l'yen ting, quelqu'un que je bis comme me déteste. Grrrr.

J'espère un jour que je peux vraiment être avec elle. Mais semble maintenant tant du impossible. Elle bis m'aime je aussi la force de paroles creuses elle à pareil moi. = (a hier causé avec michelle (pas le rmt et le bgss un). Elle m'envoie une chanson qu'elle a chantée. Sa voix est si douce!! Bientôt je allant rencontre son le. Juste avait son nombre. La merveille comment elle regarde. D'ici en avant je vais faire les études abit plus dur et faire lentement les études plus dur et plus dur. Doivent travailler notre projet maintenant. Surtout notre econs. Haha semble son très mal fait. Je crois avec de l'e.t que nous pouvons toujours faire bien dans notre projet. Maintenant doit choing le. Le fait de penser au putting de plus de concepts maintenant et d'un graphique si je peux. Hehe. Assez du.

Si j'ai jamais une chance de sortir avec vous, je vous achèterai sans doute quelque chose de bon et vous dirai combien je vous aime. Mais je pense son impossible pour moi pour sortir de nouveau. = (

See how boring the lecture is. the empty seats for this lecture is more than the seats occupied

2006-08-01T18:13:00.000+08:00

Haha maintenant je change mon blog au français. Woot! Leh heureux. Au moins les gens que je déteste la coutume savent que j'écris, après que tous ces gens sont stupides. Haha. Je suis sûr ils la coutume sait comment lire le français. Ainsi juste le poste wadever j'aime et aucun besoin de voir le visage des gens. Yay.
Aujourd'hui le jour de merde lah, Rachel stupide. Elle dit veulent me faire tout alors maintenant et mes autres membres kena le blâme. Grrr. Je crois que je allant rate mon administration. Haiz. Aujourd'hui en ce moment la demande sereine à nous d'attacher notre état de situation. Il a été écrit dans le drap d'instruction sia. Pourtant elle enfonce dans la tête vont font partie. Merde! lah!!! Somemore toujours nevermind, en baisant aujourd'hui a irrité lo. Tout le groupe fait classer leur rapport final ou bined. Mais le nôtre pas sia. Grrr = (Rien beaucoup pour voyager par la poste aussi lah. En étant triste très maintenant lo, je crois qu'elle me déteste au lieu de m'aimer. = * (ont envie de crier, mais je suis un gars. Ainsi moi coutume. Mais quelque chose perce mon coeur. Wor pénible. Voir-la avec un gars. Je retourne le concentré dans les études. Voir-la me regarder comme si je suis un idiot, me fait se sentir vraiment plus pénible. Sanglot de sanglot.Est allé à la banque hier. Haiz pourquoi steve ainsi l'image floue de. = (me donnent son numéro de compte donne aussi 1 chiffre moindre. Ne donnez-moi alors jamais son nom exact = (maintenant dunno quand peut alors recevoir son compte du Rhum. Haiz, triste triste triste. Je l'aime vraiment beaucoup beaucoup beaucoup., aujourd'hui oh ya. Lah stupide, elle shhh à moi wor, comme je damne bruyant. Alors j'aime la dispute avec elle. Haiz duncare lah. Je aussi dunno que faire. Bis ont envie de voyager par la poste beaucoup. = (j'ai l'impression d'être le jeu d'arrêt conquiert le. Ayez envie de faire les études plutôt, mais étudier haiz. = (

2006-07-31T17:09:00.000+08:00

j'enfonce dans la tête s'attendent il y a les gens lisant mon blog. grrr. si j'écris jamais quelque chose que l'offensive, pls bis deviennent furieux mais je veux juste avoir quelque chose que je peux écrire ainsi moi la coutume se souvient que ceux-ci bourrent. =D aujourd'hui est allé à l'école. de nouveau. = (si ennuyeux et s'est ennuyé ainsi que j'ai envie de dormir. = (en raison du temps pluvieux. ainsi le refroidissement et plus mon air trompe si froid.
aujourd'hui le vacarme de kenny est allé pour la conférence, donc a fini par devenir gary avec moi et pohteck. et la conférence aujourd'hui seulement 1 heure de long. si déjeuné et énième faire après que, donc nous finissons par devenir aller à la bibliothèque au 3ème étage lire un magazine pour et un journal. en lisant énième beaucoup pour faire aussi. subitement lixian et jolene sont venus au 3ème étage et s'asseoir avec nous. alors ils parlent la conversation de conversation. et lixian parlent de moi m'écrivant comme une fille dans notre classe. j'ai ressemblé à omg et rougissant aussi lo ainsi paiseh sia. j'ai pensé si longtemps que personne ne poste mon blog, donc personne ne le lira aussi, pourquoi faisait maintenant de nouveau toujours lire les gens. hmmm, avec optimisme wadever je dis la coutume offensent les gens qui ont lu lah.aujourd'hui juste sia. triste je déteste à pareil quelqu'un de nouveau. comme le forçage moi-même pour être sia triste, à moi l'amour est vraiment énième, mais amer. pourquoi fait Dieu me veut aux gens pareils si facilement et personne ne m'aime. = * ( et aujourd'hui je projette vraiment avec eux de nouveau. le si bei agaçant, comme d'habitude elle soutient toujours que son point est juste quand tous les gens sont en désaccord avec elle. grrr. quand peut elle être jamais bon. a reçu une peinture que nous avons prise pendant le projet, vraiment vraiment très bizarre. moi et pohteck est allé acheter un chocolat pendant la réunion ainsi le sens de coutume sian et ennuyé, alors après le fait de manger certains, nous sommes devenus vraiment haut sia. continuent entièrement à rire ici et là. et subitement, rachel dit qu'elle autrefois très très haut qu'elle peut rire depuis une heure sia et que personne n'est autour d'elle, alors pohteck est venue pour dire quelque chose qui fait le rire de groupe entier comme l'enfer. il répond à rachel disant qu'elle est vraiment folle directement après que rachel a dit la connerie.
vraiment je bis ai l'humeur de faire le projet, son tout becuz d'elle. = (elle partait brusquement avec un gars wor. je me demande que ce gars est, l'ami ? ou petit ami. haiz vraiment comme son alot. mais savent je la coutume être avec son de. pourquoi est Dieu m'intimidant. = (lo triste me permet exprès de voir le truc que je bis comme et dunwan pour voir. et l'attitude qu'elle me donne ressemble à lah terrible, je juste bis comme cela encore je l'aime tellement. grrrrr. agaçant. l'amour est si compliqué et déconcertant. en tout cas voici quelques photos que j'ai prises pendant la réunion. ce gars bis a le visage pour montrer himself=D

maintenant il montre son visage féroce

michelle =D

shile, la liasse est vous regardant.

cette dame regarde pour toujours ainsi féroce. le blâme de paroles creuses, elle est un ET à me=D personne ne l'aime.

haiz so many thing to do. grrr!!!

Enough of project le.
i need to write something about the game i play alot.
have to say good bye valens =(
valens is my archer and i have no choice but to sell it.
my lucky archer=(
he is a really good hunter, that can gives me really very very good items.
haiz

thx god i still have my warrior (BabyDave)
now lvl high le can pwn any1 even killed the top player in the server before.

happy to hear that. yay. =D
next week gonna get my fire tao again. RUm

2006-07-27T17:24:00.000+08:00

aujourd'hui le si bei agaçant. haha mais dae bizarre aussi. pourquoi en irritant, becuz de rachel agaçante, elle damne f lah. comme tout le bon qu'elle gardera pour elle, bourrera mal elle nous pousse. GRRR!! lah stupide! aujourd'hui nous en faisant une présentation courte, bise avons même beaucoup de temps pour coordonner la liasse pour faire et où continuer à travailler. alors elle comme le fait de parler elle-même au mur. chacun si furieux que la liasse elle fasse des paroles creuses de lo coordonne même bien. ytd damnent lah stupide!! dites 10 réunion de mins, appelez-nous ensuite se rencontrent en haut à 12.15 quand la conférence commence à 1. dites alors déjeunent ensemble, stupides! nous bis voulons même manger avec sa lo lah stupide! agaçant. alors à la fin u savent la liasse. elle rencontre en haut seulement 1 minute! wtf lo! 1 minute nous appelle vont à 12.15. lah. stupides mais heng qu'elle enfonce toujours dans la tête vraiment disent 12.15 elle à la fin le changement toujours automatique à 12.45. mais juste très furieux. .

haha, revient maintenant au bizarre. aujourd'hui je me sens vraiment très très bizarre. suhannah est subitement venu en courant ici et là pour l'aide cherchant son dossier, qu'à l'intérieur de l'entretien de tous les articles qui sont tenus de se soumettre pendant le marketing de la classe de travaux dirigés. elle a pris vraiment une longue période en trouvant, au temps tt était très très sérieux. nous tous nous inquiétons aussi pour eux. continuez alors à trouver ici et là. alors poh teck m'a dit que li xian confirment la grondent fichu mal. alors j'ai dit que poh teck, li xian perdent d'habitude ses articles très très très facilement. peut-être li xian vont en ce moment les toilettes ont alors oublié de prendre le dossier. haha alors à la fin, quand shile et chelle vont l'aide su trouvent le dossier. à la fin, lixian a pris le dossier. = _ =. kinda lah bizarre, su comme a pris tant de temps pour trouver le dossier jusqu'à son oeil le. rouge je aussi bth, cuz le dossier est avec lixian. hahahaa!!! un autre irritant de nouveau, aujourd'hui mon gramp m'appelle pour aller à ma maison aunty voir le fils de mon cousin.

Le Bébé Cuteh Rhys. Vraiment très très très joli bien que. Mais becuz de sa naissance à ce monde, ma mamie veut que j'aille voir-le. le si bei sian, allez à la maison aunty. je suis désolé d'aller à la maison de parent sauf le nouvel an (a reçu ang bao). allez là font aussi énième, voient aunty, voient mon cousin, voient que le bébé, assoyez-vous ensuite s'assoient se taisent font énième. sian lah. comme kena a forcé à aller sia.

Voici une peinture de cela BabyRhys. hehe, la première en postant fois des photos, s'inquiètent plus tard échouent.

Droit joli. J'ai plus.

1 dernière photo.

2006-07-26T23:05:00.000+08:00

En allant le début blogging ici de nouveau. Alot de truc pour écrire. cela quelques jours, jouez le jeu de jeu. toujours havent arrêtent co ont envie d'arrêter, mais avoir de nouveau envie d'acheter quelques bons comptes aussi. grrr. que je me demande pourquoi les jeux sont si addictifs, si j'avais jamais une petite amie de nouveau. je suis très sûr que j'arrêterai. quotidien passent mon temps avec elle. vraiment maintenant je pense à quelqu'un. de ma classe de. mais fichu stupide. son comme lah impossible.

dites-en. je damne irrité par alot des gens dans ma classe. je dunno est moi qui ont l'attitude ou son becuz ils sont les idiots. damnez aujourd'hui f en haut lah. la fille j'ai pensé qui se taisent diam fichus diam de disent énième beaucoup de moi. dites alors subitement si fort. parlez comme un haut-parleur sia. scarry. somemore je damne f en haut qu'elle dit que moi et poh teck sont gays. WTF! je ne suis pas une lo je suis sûre poh teck aint un aussi. comme nous l'avons offensée. damnez l'idiot lah. nous ne lui faisons jamais rien même pas la conversation à elle d'un air détaché auparavant aussi. elle comme si déplaisant à moi. dites ce mot. elle dit que moi maintenant je lui réplique, la lesbienne lah. l'idiot stupide!

hmmmp.

déjà je pense à 1 mois moi et sa pause le. se souviennent du temps elle m'a dit que j'enfonce dans la tête me passent le temps surtout avec elle. wth! alors dans un moment, mon ami m'a dit qu'elle a reçu le nouveau petit ami. idiot lah! je dunno lah. juste toujours abit furieux je pense. il y a quelques jours, elle me demande toujours la liasse si je toujours furieux d'elle, vraiment pas lah vraiment furieux, elle dans aus, moi dans sg comment passer le temps ensemble bien. la fois dernière qu'elle était dans sg nous passons vraiment beaucoup de temps, mais maintenant. lah. impossible haiz, soyez juste tristes la fois ainsi dernière, mais le sens maintenant bis mauvais le. maintenant ainsi cham, voulez que le film de montre, personne regarde avec, veuille ne parler à quelqu'un, aussi personne. = (. si j'avais jamais une chance d'être avec elle qui sera bonne. je le fait de penser à l'achat d'un chien pour elle, aimez-la vraiment tellement, mais il semble être impossible, cuz ses amis bis comme moi à toute lo haiz, je pense elle aussi bis comme moi, Fker stupide lah! elle est celui qui parlent mal des gens. je suis agréable aux gens encore ils croient que je suis mauvais, GRRRR!!! le cours stupide lah seulement le pouvoir de fille. je commence sérieusement à me détester le. suay suay parti à un cours avec le pouvoir de femmes. seulement 6 gars, comme n'ont pas ne disent sia. je aussi dunwan pour leur répondre insolemment. comme fuking facile à qi fu sia. sian. suay lah, maintenant moi vraiment comme un lâche fking. la fois dernière aussi pas comme cela, haiz fichu triste. si j'ai jamais une chance d'être avec elle bien, qui sera bon sia. je veux une petite amie lah.!!! GRRR!! vraiment je bis ai l'intention d'avoir maintenant, mais le pouvoir d'amour pour elle fichu fort. je veux un répulsif, sian. haiz!!! haiz!!! haiz!!! lo triste triste triste je crois que j'ai croit que trop de le. veut l'immeuble en copropriété (si peut rester avec ma petite amie) une voiture, une carte de crédit bla bla presque tout le Cs en incluant le condom = _ = 11pm le haiz je pense je la coutume blog tant du .. maintenant aucune fille pour parler, penser blogging devrait aider. maintenant je vais le sommeil, tml se réveillent, alors tml oubliera le.

2006-05-25T18:41:00.000+08:00

1 year back, Dave had sign up his broadband and started playing conqueronline (a massively multiplayer online role-playing game) from us. it was very very fun and he had many new friends. At that time he was still named as Maverick.

Maverick dunno how to play the game well, and went to a guild ( FruitBaskeT- a Singapore guild at that time) and had many helpers to help him out in the game. At that time, there was 1 person who had helped him alot. That was Sheri. Sheri taught Maverick the way to do leveling and hunting. Hence, Maverick and Sheri became very very good friends. Only that they are still so call online friends.

Whatever happened to Sheri, she will tell Maverick about it. Likewise, whatever happened to Maverick, he will tell Sheri. Because of that, something happened to Sheri, she and her boyfriend broke up because of misunderstanding, thinking that Maverick is having a relationship with Sheri.

Soon after that misunderstanding, Sheri's grandpa died. Sheri call Maverick out and told Maverick about it. One thing that Maverick heard was that Sheri have to go back to Australia to continue her grandpa's business (a restaurant). At the same time, she also said something that she felt very guilty. She told Maverick that she have been lying to Maverick that all the stuff that she told him was all fake. ( Even the name Sheri). Sheri was actually her cousin's name in Singapore and her name is actually Rachel. Soon after everything was said, Maverick told her he is not angry even she lied to him because he knows Rachel is a good girl and have her reason for lying. Indeed, the main reason why Rachel lied was because she was told not to give real information about herself as there are many scammers in this world.

When Rachel went back, Maverick sent her off (sad of course). Rachel promise she will keep in contact with Maverick through the internet. Maverick waited for her for more than 5 months. Yet there wasnt any news about her. Thinking Rachel is very busy and have no time to write any email to Maverick, Maverick wanted to forget her and change his name to Dave. Hence, Rachel was not in his mind for more than 2 months. When

Dave went to his college years, he was forced to recall Rachel because a student in his class whose name is also Rachel. Dave believes that fate is trying to make a fun with him and wants him to remember Rachel forever.

Till now, Dave is still looking for Rachel. Dave emailed her cousin Sheri and was told Rachel do not have a personal email and busying doing her grandpa's business. He even wanted to go to Australia to look for him. However, its not allow by his family since he is only 17 yrs old. He is very determined to go to Australia to look for Rachel once he is 21. Dave hopes he can see Rachel again and tell Rachel all the thing he wanted to tell her. Lets hope Dave will be able to find Rachel as soon as possible.

2006-05-24T14:27:00.000+08:00

this few days damn boring. lectures all no fun. go there like waste time. dun even understand wad the lecturer is talking about. so during the break we just run away for the lecture. =_=.
and today also had my apel. was so funni sia. we talk about the stuff we want to be. the careperson wants our blog address and want to read. OMG!.
imagine she reads my blog, with all the fuck here and there. woot. i wonder what the consequences will be. lol.

2006-05-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

today had management lesson and during the tutorial was a test in between. and i discover i have really learnt my lesson. expected i can do well even din study hard but i know the answer is no. i am forced to put an answer in each question and its really so difficult for mi to give an answer since all the answers seem to be very relavant. and i think i need to study very very very hard. but i am addicted to playing games. must try to stop surfing and playing internet games. nth to type nowadays =P so will just end here=P

2006-05-22T20:35:00.000+08:00

haiz. recently also nth to post. cuz i am sick. haiz stupd virus and the stupid volcano. make mi and my family all sick. today had my accounting quiz. damn irritating. i dunno wad to say also sia. but stupid quiz make mi feel so bad. i dun think i can do well in my class quiz sia. thought can get full marks, but din go study the principles. stupid. then so many questions come out. haiz. regreted!

2006-05-15T20:42:00.000+08:00

haiz. i dunno wad to say. i think its a misunderstanding lor. felicia, i think u think i am saying u right? becuz i ask u if u hate mi or not. i am just very irritated that day. i even ask other friends in msn on that day if that hate mi or not. becuz sometimes i really feeled so lonely and sad. so i tend to ask these stupid question. if u feel very offended i am sorry. but i am seriously very unhappy about 1 person in my computer class. we really dunno each other well. so wad izzit for when i say i hate u =/. but really very sorry. i dunwan to make enemies in poly becuz its very important. like doing project teamwork blabla. then if careperson knows the problem, then we will have deduction of c.u. we wont want this to happen rite. so seriously i dunwan to be like this.

2006-05-14T15:34:00.000+08:00

haha. friday went footballing with weixiang and gang. its really very fun. so fun that now i have blister on my foot. so funny. wei jie's ( my cousin ) friend also playing with us and he is only primary 5. but he is really good at soccer. the way he dribble and the way he do ball stopping really fantastic. =P
really cant wait for next week and footballing again. really too fun and memorable.

yesterday i was chatting with my raptors korkor in msn. was like so irritated by something in my mind this few weeks. that is the word LOVE. human are born to play with this thing love and this love is seriously something that helps to prevent life being extinct in this world. but i seriously very irritated by this becuz love is bringing me misery. so much misery that i really dunno how to face this thing. sometimes i feel that ppl who are heartless are actually living a better life than ppl who have feelings.
they dun care wad they are doing, no matter kind or evil act. and they dun feel the pain that is given to them.
instead ppl who have feelings are those that really suffered. they have to face so much pain in this world.
i just hate love alot. =(

2006-05-06T01:24:00.000+08:00

heh. i guess this blog really help mi alot. the word destiny is really a word that helps mi to get over all the unhappy matters away. ytd i was really pissed off that i have to do the project with the ppl whom i hope i am not with. but after i have seen the word destiny, i really feel that its all destiny and fate that does the arrangement. i cant blame myself, neither can i blame them. i have fated to do project with the ppl whom i dun like. sometimes i am veryvery unlucky. Reason: its all destiny. i must complete the path and carry one with life. these small stuff must not stop mi from continuing my journey. instead i should try harder on it so as i can get to the entrance of success...
I WILL BE THE BUSINESSMAN OF THE CENTURY.
I MUST GO TO THE UNIVERSITY I WANNA BE.
I MUST TOP THE CLASS WITH HONOUR AND RESPECT!
WHEN I WANT TO DO IT, I CAN DO IT! =)

2006-05-04T19:29:00.000+08:00

i am just damn pissed off today. darned!
i really dunno if i should blame myself or wad.
now i am forever working my project with that 2 'twins'
i think their names are Michelle and Rachel.
haiz.
they din do anything wrong actually.
but then i really dunno why.
i have a fucking strong feeling, if i do my project with them.
it will just be so bad.
i will not get good result.
haiz haiz haiz. =(
but seriously.
today yi xian said to mi that i should blame myself that i din make the initiative to do project with the ppl whom i feel i can work out with them well.
well, i think i am really too wrong that i expected they will not leave mi out.
no one ask mi to join their group.
really dunno y.
am i really an outcast?
or becuz of my look that i look like 1?
its really feeling so bad that these stuff happened.
now i really feel my life is being ruin by myself.
perhaps this is just destiny that i must face.
really no choice.
mi must really try my best to control.
must accept all the situation.
darn.
i am really damn pissed off.
just dun care now.
i will try my best.
try to work out.
if really cannot.
i will want to switch my course.
i hate LOVE!!!
LOVE SUCKS!!!
LOVE IS ONLY THE KEY TO BRING HATRED!!!
and i want to STUDY!!!
haiz
but mi just cant stop thinking about those stuff.

2006-05-02T19:16:00.000+08:00

its been such a long time again that i din post in my blog liao. haha. now mi am studying in the school of business wor in tp. WOOT! but then hor. i dunno y. at first so enthu about the course. but now like very sian with it. like no fun one. haiz. dunno wad is so good about this course liao. maybe becuz there is not many friends in this course. and after some situation. mi dunno y. just some very strange feeling for this course, like not very good. today the worst thing happened le. blame myself for not attending the meeting since i got a wrong date. and now i am put into a group with the quietest ppl in class. jia lat. retailing is all about talking. if they dun talk in project work. sure have big difficulties during convo. jia lat liao lah haiz. but nvm. at least poh teck is with mi. so i wont feel so left out. still at least can try to manage among 2 of us. woot! oh ya. i have deleted all the tags liao. hope everyone of u guys will try to retag lah.

2006-03-10T23:20:00.000+08:00

Damn! today just got screwed up by my boss! why does the watson fuckers like to complain? so suay sia. today you know wad happened? he just came and warn mi about my behaviour. i already had 2 complains in just 1 month and i cant afford to have third one. i think i gonna quit before i get very embarassed. now wad i must do is to check if any other companies recruiting staff. dammit. i just dun think so man. cuz i think i wont get a job like now ( Work Only On Weekend Basis) arrgghhh. i just want this job so much! haiz. i am just very pissed now. i think my finance will be cropped up soon! becuz i din earn the amount i have been earning. my income is really too instable le. haiz. i dunno if i should continue buying a w810i or n70 or just use w800i. now also dun have money le. dammit.! arrrgghh very angry sia!

2006-03-06T00:46:00.000+08:00

work work work! its damn sian. but nvm. i am much better than many other people who needs to work other day. hehe. cuz i just need to work only on weekdays. anyway the sad thing is that some of the watson's staff are going to quit. 2 of my good friends going to quit sia. argghh. ShenZhi and Jonathan will no longer be around in 10 of march. that is this tursday! haiz. no more lunch together. now more ppl are going off. but nvm. i know we can keep in contact after all. since ShenZhi and mi are going to the same course. haha. anyway they leave still never mind. cuz i still have YingChee, the girl that lots of guys wanna jio.( Eric and Redzuan) wonder wad is good about her sia. She is only a normal girl mah. dunno y it dun attract mi. after work, went out having my dinner with her. (just ate sushi and some fries from MacDonalds.) this tuesday i gonna meet up with her and Redzuan again. becuz Redzuan wants to make clear with her. LOL! then i think we gonna watch a movie then let them make clear in a cafe or wadsoever. then i wont have Redzuan to pester me all the time. hahahaha. then i ll have my peaceful time playing conqueronline. everything will just be alright after playing. hehe. currently i really want to know some more new girls leh. i just want to have a sweet relationship. but i think its just impossible. haiz. but nvm lah. i ll work up on it. JIA YOU!

2006-03-05T15:26:00.000+08:00

Wakaka! our posting is finally out! i am going to the retail segment! that is retail management from Temasek Poly! LOL! so happy lor! i just want to study that course. already decide in sec 3 ( isnt that early?) haha! but then, i dunno now any ppl going there leh. only today, shen zhi told mi that she and her 3 friends going there. wahahahaha. but never mind! cuz i believe not many ppl i know there is also a good news, cuz i ll get to know more friends than before. anyway, now i already wont feel lonely when i go there. cuz i just have shen zhi to accompany mi. hehehe. just too bad. may is in the jc. so i cant be with her. but nvm mind i think i gonna give up on her. no more may ( i just dunwan to meet her more lor) so i wont continue to have that strong feelings. i believe i ll find a better girl. haha, and i actually found it. but i think i gonna find an even better one. hehehehehe.
damn conquer online, till now i just havent had any new server to chiong the game. i want to choing like hell in the new server and spend all my time away so i wont anyhow think too much. think of may and career. no stress! hahahaha! but then i think i should take back the no stress phrase. cuz i believe in conquer online. its still a competition to mi. i want to be the first one to open guild, the first one to make my name known in the whole server. the first one who is able to get all the 5 chars ( trojan, warrior, archer, water and fire tao) reborn and fixed level (lv 130) wouldnt that be greatz? haha. i just cant wait to get that result you know. then i can sell my 5 chars together for a few thousand and retired the whole game. muahaha.
in two weeks time, i ll be out to genting, so happy to be able to go there. somemore i dun need to pay for any money. i think i gonna get this chance to buy either a PSP or a digital camera (Panasonic FX9). But then after some thoughts i think i not going to buy a digital camera cuz think i dun think i not going to use it so frequently since i am only going to have W810i and the camera function is already 2.0megapixels. somemore the digital camera i am only going to use it for the next S.H.E concert and genting trip. then i dun think i going to use it anymore. haha. k lah must go sleep le. if not i ll not be able to wake up tml morning for work. hehex!

2006-03-03T00:23:00.000+08:00

today is already 3rd march. why isnt the server split! haha. this answer is just too simple. thier 10 pm is actually american time. oh now its 3rd march! just remember! our result will be out in this morning! wakaka! i am really quite enthu to know wad course i ll be in for my posting. haha. i just have no worries abt mi not knowing any new friends in new school since the course i choose is just a course that most girls would choose. haha. i din even choose any engineering course. the reason is, there will always be lesser gals than guys in engineering course. hahahaha. i just cant wait to know more girls in the new course. i am not flirting. but i am going to try to give up again. since may just dun like mi. i can just assure that we dun have any chance. unless she tells mi i have chance. hehe. ok lah. i now waiting for new server. when new server comes. i must choing! choing till lv 90! then open a new guild. try my best to recruit as many ppl in the guild as possible. then must choing more to lv 130. after my fix lv there, i ll train my fire tao then. wahaha. fire tao! must use in order to protect the guild. hehe. then when i fix fire tao. i gonna rb my archer and choing archer again. then when archer get rb and lv 130. i must be a pro! haha! then hor. i ll rb my fire tao and train till lv 130. hehe. after having this 2 account. i think i can give a rest then and start playing a trojan. but i can only say. the most important thing to be a real pro is to make my taoist equiped with good items. +9 super robe and alot!
hahahaha. just cant stand myself. k now i ll go rest. good luck everyone!

2006-03-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

hehe, today went to play soccer. damn! shouldnt have wear a slipper! just now playing soccer din wear anything bear foot. its really very painful sia. now my foot got some bubbles. haiz. walk also got difficulty. really nothing to do sia. new server isnt out. haha. now watching the 'yuan lai jiu shi ni' (the channel U show) i really very envy of the lovers sia. until now, i still havent have any relationship sia. haiz. then there is 1 guy who is with a gal who is taller than him sia. y cant mi be with may. just becuz i am shorter by 0.5 cm, then she mind abt that. i really like her lor. i am really willing to spend all my money on her lor. willing to help her whenever she needs help. but she just dun like mi at all. haiz. i have tried my best. love her and do wadever i can. i remember very clearly, when i was in sec 1. miss kang ( now mrs. quek) punish us to copy 3 chapters of our science textbook. i was thinking she ll be very tired of copying so many pages, so i copied 2 sets, 1 for her and 1 for myself. that time i dun dare to pass to her directly so i ask anas to help mi pass to her. in sec 2, her maths isnt very good, while i am one of the top student for maths in our class, i wrote some notes for her. but in the end i also paiseh, din pass her any notes, in the end, it is landed in hongsheng's hands. haiz!. sec 3, i remember got 1 time she din do her homework for her chinese homework. while i did it. so i lend her my assignment and let her copied. in the end, mdm fang ( our chinese teacher for that year ) discovered it that our answer were exactly the same. so she asked us, who copied whose. i wanted to cover for her so i said i copied hers. but she still admit to mdm fang. i really love her alot. this year valentine's, since i have worked, i bought her a necklace that worth abt 200. to be frank, everyone knows i am those who are very selfish de. wouldnt want to spend a single cent for anyone. but i did! i cant believe i dun feel heartach to buy her the necky leh. really very shocking. but she just dun have any feelings for mi. for the past 4 yrs. even though i tried to love someone else( cuz peggy and her gang always say lai ha ma xiang chi tian er rou), but i still have feelings for her. haiz. i really dun understand do i look like a 'lai ha ma'? i dun think i really look that bad. i have been changing my attitude to better. but why doesnt she likes mi? i just couldnt understand lor. haiz. i may not look like ppl who are that fit or handsome, but at least i dun look bad rite? oh shit. y am i writing this stuff again. now wad i wish is to concentrate on my game and my career and of course, my education! i must be a pro in the new server and be able to have the best guild in the game. and for my career. i want to get my pay increased as soon as possible, so i must work hard and sell well for my company so they will increase my pay. haha. then my education i wanna study well. since i am aiming for business courses, i think i wanna study hard and if possible get to the university from poly. no matter singapore uni or overseas de. I MUST JIA YOU!

GOOD LUCK!
HOPE MY TAO HUA YUN CAN BE BETTER!

2006-03-01T00:48:00.000+08:00

this few days really very bored. the new server isnt out yet, and i really have no aim in crystal server. finally lindy and bear wanna go to the new server with mi. i am so happy. i heard furypete will go as well. wahaha. i am just so happy. but when will it be out! i have waited for fully a mth, yet it isnt out yet. so tired. haiz.
talking abt may, she just wont give mi an answer. really sad. i know she dun have any feelings for mi. for 4 yrs, she just wont fell in love with mi. why is that so? i really dun understand. look like i am going to be smart again. try to like someone. forget abt may. ( it's quite impossible) recently i have been working in ngee ann city for a grape juice company. i heard my boss's partnership is ONG TENG CHEONG's wife's relative! omg! feel so honour. the grape juice have changed its bottle, maybe should be able to sell better. to be frank, the juice cost 9.8 bucks and its too expensive. yet there are ppl who wanna buy. haha. sunday went to far east plaza after work. saw a bag. really very nice. only for 39.90 bucks. cheap rite? i saw 1 bag pack and a sling one leh. can say as lover's bag. hmm, was thinking if i should buy that couple bag for mi and the canmake girl ( Since may doesnt love mi, i think i should really give up). but i think better not. cuz my friend likes her alot. she can be my sister only. in my heart only may. in my dreams also may. in my mind also may. no one can understand how painful i feel when i talk abt may. so better dun talk abt her. she is just a girl who have nice figure and attitude. though she may not be the belle in school, she will just be a girl i love for a long time and difficult for mi to give up. hmmm. really dunno what to do. wonder y i start blogging again. lol! just now was playing gunbound. forever a noob and wont be a pro. i like the game. but i hate it that the fact that i am the noob. but for conquer. i ll not be a noob. i must make a name out of it in the new server. together with lindy and bear, i must cr8 the best guild in that server ( Aquaristic ). k lah. i really have nth much to say le. tml i should be playing with soccer with saranpal they all. such a long time i have not meet time. wonder how they ar. oh ya. that day i read saran's blog, he gt say his results for o level. i think i should be frank le lah. i score 21 for l1 r5 and 17 for l1 r4. sucks rite? haha but then i passed my english( C5), Emaths (B3), Amaths (B3), Chem(B3), Physics (C5), Combine Humanities ( B3!!!) and Chinese (B4). wakaka.

2006-02-24T22:48:00.000+08:00

it have being such a long time i have not update. anyway i know even i update no one gonna read my blog. i am not popular. so why do i bother to update. so i have finally deleted all the old post. today, i decided to update my blog again. isnt it funny, i know no one will read it, so why should i bother to update again. i decided to update again becuz there is some reason. yesterday, i went to bowling at marina square ( alone ), and play 8 continuous rounds of bowling. its really greatz. never better than other games. but after the games. i went pass shireen's shop in citylink. she saw me but she ignored mi! its really very sadening. we know each other for 4 yrs 2 mths and 23 days. yet when she saw mi, she just treat mi as a passer-by. Shireen, when someone ignores u, what will u feel. very sad you know? today, i was actually going to watch pink panther with may. i wanted to give her the bracelet i bought for her and express how much i love her. but in the end, becuz of a dinner. we didnt go watch the movie. so i think hard, and ask her directly on msn to have a relationship together. but she wont answer. i knew that will be the answer. becuz that is always the same situation. and when she din answer, the answer is very simple. she have no feelings for me. and wont have any relationship with mi. i am just very heartbroken now. 4 yrs of hardwork = failed! she said mi 4 yrs i have like calista and hanny as well. i like her becuz of a reason, i.e many ppl wanted mi to give up on may. but i really cant. even how hard i tried. i really love may. and the feelings din change at all.

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