it have being such a long time i have not update. anyway i know even i update no one gonna read my blog. i am not popular. so why do i bother to update. so i have finally deleted all the old post. today, i decided to update my blog again. isnt it funny, i know no one will read it, so why should i bother to update again. i decided to update again becuz there is some reason. yesterday, i went to bowling at marina square ( alone ), and play 8 continuous rounds of bowling. its really greatz. never better than other games. but after the games. i went pass shireen's shop in citylink. she saw me but she ignored mi! its really very sadening. we know each other for 4 yrs 2 mths and 23 days. yet when she saw mi, she just treat mi as a passer-by. Shireen, when someone ignores u, what will u feel. very sad you know? today, i was actually going to watch pink panther with may. i wanted to give her the bracelet i bought for her and express how much i love her. but in the end, becuz of a dinner. we didnt go watch the movie. so i think hard, and ask her directly on msn to have a relationship together. but she wont answer. i knew that will be the answer. becuz that is always the same situation. and when she din answer, the answer is very simple. she have no feelings for me. and wont have any relationship with mi. i am just very heartbroken now. 4 yrs of hardwork = failed! she said mi 4 yrs i have like calista and hanny as well. i like her becuz of a reason, i.e many ppl wanted mi to give up on may. but i really cant. even how hard i tried. i really love may. and the feelings din change at all.












LOST, MISSING,HEARTBROKEN

written at 10:48 pm

simple me
i just want happiness
money, love, and freedom keeps me happy~
loving a girl alot rite now
really love her
18 yrs old now
still 'single'
studying in TP
happy days xD



love py~
love money~
love to be loved~
love S.H.E~
love when i look good~
love when im not left out~



hates when she ignores me xD
hates when im being fooled so hard
hates people shoot me so badly
hates people who hates me
hates people who dispise people of different class
hates the fact i think alot
hates when i cannot control myself not to worry


have her to be with my life 4ever~
a car
a house
a family
a new bag
a new sunglass
a new handphone
a new com
a new room
wish i can stay happily 4ever. thats wad i want most