Sunday, July 15, 2007
hmmm. well should say its yesterday since its already 3 am saturday now.
i went out with her and a few friends.
when seen her i gave her a gift i promised to gave her last time.
damn sad lah, she tried to reject leh = (
why must she like this sia..
she promised me she will take then still tried to reject = (
that gift is actually a ring i bought for her when i got my 1st pay =x
then its inside a box of chocolate from chocs =x
actually wanted to melt the ring inside a chocolate one.
but the it takes more a few days to make it = (
thought can be immediate one. haiz.
but lucky lah, she at least got take it.
but sadly leh. the way she take like not appreciative =x
she takes the bag and swing around lo..
the chocolate inside =x keep swinging sure will break apart.
like swingin my heart sia and wants to break it =x
haiz.. = ( but i know she already have seen it before going home lah..
thats why its like.. she is doing it on purpose to tell me she don like the gift?
i also dunno lah. = (
well,
went to bugis to have seoul garden =x
spend lots of money on it...
today swipe cards like drinking water sia =x
haiz.
but then still dun feel heartach.
at least i know wad she's thinking already.
from my heart... i know the best answer le...
and also expected that outcome...
haiz...
we met around at 3.45 pm..
then waiting for desmond to turn up.
its my 1st time meeting desmond.
he is tall...
and pretty good looking...
i feel so stress when i talk to him sia..
cuz he is soo tall and so much better than me.
feeling emo again. = (
well, desmond is really quiet sia...
all the way she and lq has been suaning her. cannot stand laughing.
and he is like those quiet quiet dun dare say anything one lo.
and hor he keeps calling and smsing sia...
and eat alot alot of meat x=
very funny of him lah.. very nice guy i can say.
cuz he dun dye hair, no ear studs, no smoking.
a very innocent guy.. =D
after eating...
then we just shop shop shop.
but then shopping like just strolling, there is nothing to do lo.
and then want to talk to her. she avoid me sia!
haiz.. see this pattern is like confirm die already.
i dunno wad she thinking also lah..
but she also did talk to me..
like a normal friend i think. = (
why must like this lo.. haiz. seriously i feel so hopeless le lah.
haiz..
after the strolling, lq left to find her parents.
i was abit shocked sia..
she decided to pei me go watch movie..
i mean probably not pei me bah but desmond( her brother)
cuz everytime i ask her go watch movie, she just dunwan.
haiz..
wanted to watch in shaw bugis. but that aunty super guai lan sia..
says no ticket also no need give a dulan face rite?
haiz...
then ended up going to watch in suntec..
took a cab from bugis to suntec. cuz i know she dun like to squeeze a train with other people.
hee~~
then took a cab.
how i hope she can sit with me wor.
but then i have been pushed to sit in front =x
haiz = (
then we stop at raffles city.
then walk all the way to suntec city and got 4 tickets and watched harry potter and
the order of phoenix..
that show super sian man!
i din even watch the 2nd 3rd and 4th epi.
call me watched the 5th one i see le also confused = (
while waiting for the movie to start. super bored sia..
all keep quiet
like nth to say...
i dunno wad she thinking..
but she seems like want to avoid me?
i also dunno..
but talk awhile she just walk off..
if not she just see things and din listen to wad i say = (
haiz..
very dissapointed lah..
then walk walk walk..
ended up went to walk to starbucks for a rest..
then had mango fruit punch ice blend there =X
its abit sour. but refreshing.. =D
at there sit down and do nth.
then after awhile we just walk off..
when going off, she forgot to take the gift sia..
imagine in front of me putting that thing and forget..
shows another fact that she doesnt like it..
haiz. =(
but lucky desmond reminded her to take..
cuz really very sad sia. = (
that thing if really gone..
its like, my heart put there and throw into the rubbish.
sad lah =*(
then finish le desmond very funny.
cuz he uses prepaid card..
so no choice have to buy prepaid card..
actually i want go fountain there sit sit..
then we walk walk walk...
ended up walk to golden village since so many shops dun sell.
then golden village in marina square got the axs machine. so use the machine to top up for him =D
then walk back to eng wah and just nice the show starts..
again..
i hope i could sit with her sia..
but she pushes her bro to sit with me = (
its like i sit at the corner
me - her brother - her - desmond - others
i was like
haiz...
why must she do that..
but then i nicely asked her by smsing to her if she can change seat with her bro..
but she dunwan and called me change..
then i change with her brother...
the brother funny sia!
sleep until snore in the cinema =x
then i was like seeing her all the way in the cinema sia..
cuz i really dun understand harry potter at all.
and dun find it nice..
then dunno why..
the cinema is really cold sia..
my hands are like trembling..
and i dunno wad to do lo.. = (
too bad her brother is sleeping..
then i got no one to hold my hand to help me get back to the original body temp sia..
the cold is like those piercing coldness when u get sick leh = (
and i cant do anything lo = (
then i was thinking if i can call her to hug me and hold my hands...
since she said she will do that in the past...
but then she gave me an answer of her leg cramp, want to rest...
i feel very awkward sia. haiz = (
think about this, does holding her hands means she cant rest?
hugging her makes her more uncomfortable as well?
sad sia = (
its just like she is rejecting me lo..
i cant say much..
whenever i see her, she just gave a friendly smile = (
haiz. also cant do much le..
this is fated.
i really love her alot alot alot..
but wad else can i do?
nth much..
cuz i really dunno how..
ask me spend money on a girl is very hard..
but i can force myself to spend money on her without feeling heartach lo = (
haiz...
she promised me she gonna give me an answer de..
and now she gone sleep without giving me an answer..
haiz
i also dunwan ask her anymore..
i dunwan to force her..
cuz forcing is never happy
and i know she just have no feelings for me.
why must tell me she likes me last week..
makes me so high hope, makes me so happy..
at first i dun believe but why must tell me she will accept me
then now like this happened = (
god u suck man..
seriously why must u write such a WONDERFUL story line for me..
why must i have such a 'good' fate..
so good i have to worry about money when i dun have money problem..
so good that i get rejected so many times.
so good to let me get my heart breaks.
in the 1st place why must everyone pray of u when u r the one giving people good and bad life..
we just simply do anything wad.
= (
haiz...
i really dunno sia..
why must i love her?
why she treats me like a friend when she said to me in the past this and that...
all the shattered hopes really form a deep scar in my heart..
really painful.
and i am pretty sure this scar is very hard to get healed like last time.. = (
well..
i really dunno man.. = (
love is really the suckiest thing in this world..
if we can not think of love like the monks..
its really wonderful..
the world will be so peaceful..
everyone will not see people this and that..
haiz...
i really must not think of it le..
i really dunno wad will happen in the future le..
but i know wad i have hear is all words.
really no emotions in it = (
even though i hope my jiejie is wrong, but still again she got the answer right = (
i really dunno lah haiz...
but i can feel she really has no feelings for me = (
really discouraging..
haiz.
just hope everything gets better.
but i really have a word i hope i can say.
that is if she doesnt like any1.. best is do not say anything about love the guy or like the guy or wad to do any stuff.
cuz no one cannot take it like a joke..
haiz.
