Monday, July 09, 2007
i am confused! tell me wad i should do pls pls!
grr, its going to be 3 months!
really 3 months soon u know?
i really dunno wad to do to give my final shot to ask her to be my girlfriend. even i tried.
i still remember the 1st time i know you.
the day you called me.
i find it kinda ridiculous that you called me just to say wad you want.
but its really interesting in the way u expressed.
i see there is a chemistry behind.
somehow i dunno why. is is becuz i really love u?
its always the same case.
is that a fact that all girls are always like that?
they treat u good, making u start to fall in love with her?
but actually thats the fact how girls treat to guys?
its like too close already bah...
i remember last time...
all the ways till now.
there has never been 1 successful one...
why huh?
its just so irritating lahs. =(
izzit when you love a girl, you love her so much that you are willing to do anything you like?
izzit when you love a girl, you will really stop thinking how she look and never see the girls other than her?
seriously its a big doubt. i tried my very best seriously. and i dunno wad will go on it its like this?
love is something that is like a war man. a game of win or lose.
it kills ur heart it you lose and it makes you have the luxury of spending time with her if you win.
seriously i dunno why im always in the losing battle.
and it is so hurtful.
heart is so painful all the time man. =(
i really hope that girls out there can really remain a distance if she takes a guy only as a friend and dun give the guy high hope.
cuz it really dissapoint more. really much more than anything.
i really dunno wad im thinking now grrr.
confusion around my brain now!
its just getting so irritating
studies, work, loves, everything!
why must human always face stress?
why do we have to source for a life?
why r we always being tempted to have these luxuries?
why must we always like someone?
why cant god just give us a dull relationship?
why must there by god in the 1st place?
why are we always controlled?
i seriously doubt my life..
i dunno how it will be.
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and no joke! i really love her.
i seriously dunno she is trying to comfort me or wad?
i also dunno how to present my 'secret weapon' to her
its just so irritating.
why its always the last step that im stucked!
why in the hell do i have to face this sia!
haiz
i dunno i am happy or moody rite now. awhile i am happy awhile im moody
it swings faster than anything.
grrr
i seriously dunno if i can make it
will she accept me
will she says no to me?
will we still be friends even after she rejects me?
will we no longer talk to each other again?
its just going to be mad!
i really wanted to give up.
but here finally she gave me high hopes by telling me she starts to have feeling
WHY!?
i really dunno how to continue man.
will it be embarassing?
she s gonna bring her friend man
how in the hell am i going to get her to the corner to talk alone when her friend always stick with her and am not willing to be alone with another guy friend.
this is just like GRRRR??
wad shall i do the next step?
i took alot of time to think wad i shall do to win the war.
but but! really blank!
haiz, life is full of stress. and its not wad we want.
i love you
i want you
i need you
please accept me
