Sunday, July 01, 2007
I seriously do not understand why.
Why is love like this?
Why is it always so much trouble to go through in love?
Why the hell do we have to love someone even though we tried avoiding?
Why are we so tempted in a relationship?
This world sucks man, seriously I hate the fact why do I have such a bad fate?
From the start I know u, why am I made to like u so much?
Why am I made to think that you are the girl who is to be with me for so long, and why in the hell did you want to make her let me like her so much.
When u seriously dun like me anymore, pls! Stop saying so much stuff to me. I really dunno wad to do.
AHHHH!! IM GOING MAD!
There is no longer any1 who I can share my words with.
I miss the days when I am still in RMT, the days I can share my thoughts and stuff to poh teck. Damn irritating, its not that I dunwan to study. I just cant find the key to unlock myself.
Now im in another fucking course ETCM, why in the hell do I have to know these irritating lecturers. I seriously hate u. its not the fucking fact I dunno how to do my stuff k? I am a really busy person who has to work and study. I know I cant juggle so much but I need money! My grandma’s birthday is coming and so wad? I need to buy her stuff k?
And here comes the girl I like so much. I seriously love you a lot. Dear, all along I dunno why this is happening. We merely know each other for 2 months and this is wad its happening?
I really dunno wads its between us. You said you love me, you said you wants me to take care of you. You said if no one is with me, you will be by my side for the rest of my life. But why? U r here by my side to hurt me? Why in the 1st place do I have to know u? why is god so cruel? Why in the hell did u call me at that moment? Why does god make me such a person?
Why am I a failure when I really work so hard. People say I have 50 yrs more of life to spend but why in the hell do I seem to have only 5 more yrs?
I know I am no longer as healthy as usual, but why in this fucking world does god wants me to pay so much for health and stuff?
I dunwan to be poor neither do I want to be so unhealthy. U fucking gave me a lousy lung and liver, and that’s why I am now in this situation. But for fuck sake, why the hell does it have to lead me into being fat and stuff. I tried to control the diet intake and stuff. But why in this world do I have to work harder?
Why I am I born like this? Why I am not given a life of wad the rich asses have? Why cant I be born handsome and smart at the same time? Why do I have such a lousy family? Why do they make me so stress? I hate this world I hate this world. Its never nice to say that much. I love you so much too but what is it with now between you and me? Why do you take how I am? I know im fat, pls stop saying that im not or try to console me. I HATE CONSOLATION PLS! U just make me feel so sick and let me feel that you are my guardian angel. I dunwan to have any guardian angel anymore! I rathered be a monk or wadever shit that is. And I seriously now is hating love so much. 18 yrs of life, 18 yrs of suffer. I hate my father, I hate my mother. I hate god for taking my mother away and give me such an arrogant fucking father. I hate him. I have this world! Seriously there is no where I can vent my anger now except here. I dunno how to say but It sucks when I get nothing to do.
I love you a lot but I really dunno wad I am to u now. I dunwan to hurt my life again.
Dun make me feel so good and spend you night with me please. If you dun love me at all. Please dun say all those stuff that you love me or wadever that is. I am really sick now. I really see no point now. really! No point. If u r happy, ill be happy. Meaning if you are happy to be with yourself. I will not disturb u. there is no need for us to talk anymore. The more we talk, the more we have nothing to say. And now Im just going to stop everything.
